I just wanted to send out my LOVE to all of you beautiful souls. I have moved once and it was with my son. After 3 months and just about getting settled in, he took a job offer in Tenn. and was gone literally 3 days later. I have stayed in his rented townhouse for the past few months alone but must move into a hotel for now. These are the reasons that I haven’t been on here.
I’m also attending an accelerated on-line college (why did I do that…??LOL) and that is just squeezing every ounce of my time right out of me. I plan on transferring schools to a less accelerated pace, lol…and go to school like normal people do. perhaps one of the universities here on line would be better. “Here” being wherever I seem to land next.
I’m working toward my Masters and then hopefully on to my PhD in Forensic Psychology.
More than anything, however, my Buddhist studies are becoming a larger and a more significant part of my life than anything else, (other than photography and art), and I have a sense that i am heading in a direction in that area that is just too weird sounding to explain yet.
The reverberating them of my life being what it is; loss, I must say that, by giving away most of everything I have in order to live in a tiny hotel room seems to me to be another indication of this unspoken concept that has been coming to me more and more profoundly as time passes in my life.
If I learn to always remember that what I perceive as reality isn’t always the case, then I have a tool for staying grounded mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.
Again, I love you guys. I miss talking to you and working on my photography. I have, of course, continued to take pictures but my isolationist style of living tends to keep me finding more and more in the same general areas geographically speaking.
Perhaps that will change.
I know that, without any doubt, I am on a journey toward something. My family in Indiana is a large part of that but this is getting into a personal area that I can’t do right now.
If anyone cares to text me and keep i touch with me, please email me and I’ll give you my cell. I have unlimited texting but not unlimited calling, (and I prefer to text anyway…..why, I don’t know).
I hope to hear from you guys in an email. Just to get a text from you every now and then would be so lovely.
I will never lose my connection to you guys on here. I hope that, very soon, I can get back on here and be more proactive.
All of my Deepest love and May you all, in some way, touch enlightenment and have moments of pure joy and light within your hearts.
Valerie
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barnsis
Sounds like you are working hard on the life you want. our hopes are with you that you can succeed and find the place where you can be contented and peaceful.
DeeprBlue:
Thank you Barnsis. xxxoooo
jadeast
Hey Valerie
I don’t know why you’ve popped up on my watchlist but there you are! sometimes life is just hard to explain and you seem to be in that state now! Finding something to believe in is a great advantage for dealing with the mysteries of your universe, and understanding that truth is not exactly a constant!
Good luck with whatever it is you’re dealing with, RB has some wonderful people who are here for more than photography
☺
J D
DeeprBlue:
thank you so much JD. I really don’t blame all of my other contacts for responding…..I’ve let some people down due to my personal problems in life and my health. All I can do is ask forgiveness. And I also realize that I don’t really matter all that much here on RB, in the big picture of things, so I’m not flattering myself here either.
Blessings to you guys.
I have many shots I’ve love to share soon.
Valerie
jadeast
Valerie, I’ve found that if I stay away a few days, most of my contacts go away too! It seems to be the nature of the beast, I wouldn’t take it personally. I’m going through a cycle myself where I don’t want to have to keep posting images to stay relevant but that’s not going to happen on RB, except with a few friends. There are a few of us who value people for what they are not what new images they post every day but they’re hard to find so try to keep the faith!
DeeprBlue:
You are such a kindheart. You’re right…I know. And now I’ve gone back to college (at my age!) to help rehabilitate my brain and this makes it even worse for me to get back on here. Still and yet…i think of you guys pond here more often than one might suppose.
I love you guys. Very much!
Namaste!
Valerie