Somehow, when I agreed
Things were more simple.
Clear-cut.
Possibilities endless,
Nothing to fear but, well,
Fear.
Things were just about fine.
For a while.
Then!
One small change here,
A tiny thing there,
Now Fear.
Fear of failure? Loneliness?
I’m unsure of what.
Or why.
Simply – I can’t go on
Living life like this.
Why?
I’m Spiralling ever downward,
Out of control.
But Living.
Barely.
Comments
Wow this is deep and in so many ways I can relate… So many times fear has ran my life and reduced me to depression and emotional pain. But I had to realize that fighting our fears are a part of the seemingly never ending battle of life and we can only keep fighting with the intent of overcoming even our worst fears. Unfortunately we will probably never be free of pain or fear (It only changes with time and circumstance) but the only way I keep moving is to convince myself I wont settle for a life of pain and fear, I will fight it until I can’t fight anymore. Keep your head up and know that you are not alone… Best wishes : )
Fear of fear is such a common aspect of human nature. We seem to be pessimists at heart and create such need and dependancy in life that it is only natural that we then fear loss of these things we have pedestalled in need. I so often get fear of not getting fulfillment or losing that which I hold dear. However the older I get the more I realise that to lose fear and be free I really have to search deep inside for the reasons for my fear and lack of peace. Only when I am secure inside will the outside world bring me pleasure.
I know and hate that feeling all too well.
I think this little piece is a Pandora’s box…… one word comes to mind…… Change it (and if that’s not possible… life being what it is… rearrange your attitude around it)