You are force feeding the words into my mouth,
I can’t bear to speak.
You leave me in silence,
As if I wear a muzzle.
For if I speak,
The words I only mean are nothing to you.
You meant so much to me,
It abuses me the way I feel.
I try to get by and put an act as if I am alright,
It dispatches me because I am nothing close.
I slowly discolor day by day,
I need to learn to be strong.
Why is it so hard to let go when there’s nothing to hold on to?
I hang here like a string just waiting to be pulled.
I want to end this agony and discomfort as soon as I can.
To be anywhere far from you is all I need.
I’d run away and leave everything behind me.
The memories that I hold are no longer in need,
And my dignity will not leave with me this time.