If only I hadn't killed him.


Joined January 2009

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It’s not lonely
here inside
it’s where I abide
the place that I know,
where I’m safe
to reside
I’ve been here
all my life.
Familiar sounds
heart beating
mother’s breathing
and drinking
I live in water
but I don’t drown
in here
it’s where
I’ve grown
where I’m safe.
comes from Outside
words I don’t understand.
My hand, my face
it’s my Land,
it’s everywhere
I know,
I’m so small
but I’m loved
by Her. She’s below
above and beyond me
She is
all there is
I am warm and whole.
Her soul is one with mine……..


The thunder
The tearing
The Dreadful Pain………..
Mother, why do you kill me?

In case I am misunderstood ( as occasionally happens lol ) I offer the following explanation:

The words “ becomes a spectre from the grave” are not meant literally. They can be taken on two levels:

1) The well-documented illnesses that women who have abortions are often subject to: depression, flashbacks, eating disorders etc, etc.

2) There is justice in the universe ( sometimes hard to fathom, it is true) ie. No-one kills a baby and gets away with it.

The baby in the work, of course, is not meant to be a real baby. The real baby has been aborted. It merely represents the longed-for child which the woman (who now regrets what she has done) is imagining. He has no face to represent the fact that he is not a real person, to symbolize the woman’s blindness at the time the dreadful deed was done, and finally to show the inability of the mother to gaze into her child’s face and see him smile: a joy for any parent.

The bloody tears represent the bloody sweat and tears that Christ shed in Gethsemane, and which he surely sheds now for aborted children.

Many thanks to xstockx of DeviantArt for the models.

Textures from CG Textures.





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