There is always those days.
The air seems different,
the sky dark and overcast,
the smell of bodies lingers
close by, seemingly dying.
Bodie said there would be
days like that; those kind of
days when you don’t want to
get out of bed, don’t want to
talk, don’t want to see sunlight
creep through the shutters.
She wanted things differently;
wanted them as she thought
they’d be as a child. Bodie said
childhood is a falsehood, a time
of outgrowing things, going far
beyond the lies and blinkered past.
He introduced her to the syringe
and promise; brought her to those
dark days with the spin of his tongue.
Mother would turn in her grave
if she knew such. Bodie talks over
her thoughts; his words weigh her
down, let her into the other world,
where all is fucks and shoot ups
and the long fall remembering the
soft words her mother used to call.