Last night
As he drove away from her and towards certainty
He gained a usual sense of freedom which he hadn’t felt for so long
He took the wheel and stepped on the gas
Wanting to look away and walk away from the bliss.
Along with it came sudden outbursts of jarred emotions and withered sighs
Of what to feel and what not to feel during those moments of passion with her.
I am not saying I have grown out of you.
Not at all because the air I breathe comes from inside of you
Inside of you.
Inside of
you.
He told himself but still
It pained him to find himself searching for truth this time
When all the while he had been beside her and around her,
who had given him more than enough reasons to risk again.
And to love again.
He still loved her so but this time
He just wanted to drive away towards his assurance.
For he had lost sense of who he was and what he really wanted
Not only for himself but for whatever made him whole
And maybe this drive will take him to that place
That place where his self will surface again and hopefully beside him would be
Her.