My eyes opened to see chaotic movement occurring in front of me
When the light of the room causes my pupils to dilate in repetition, the scene that had just occurred in such a shallow depth of field had vanished
What remained were a blank wall and a boy sitting in the corner, alone
Shivering, I can’t seem to conclude to where I am in this lapse of time
I stood to get a better look at the child and before I knew it my eyes closed
And I am laying in what seems to be a desert
But as I look up into the endlessly cyan sky I notice there was no sun
Yet my skin felt as if it was being broiled
Sitting up I feel my legs starting to be engulfed into the hot, coarse, sand
Laying face down on the dark pavement was a girl
Trying my hardest not to let my eyelids touch until I was ready I knelt down to glance at her swollen face
She was too familiar, how could it be?
I could not bear to stare into my own empty, glossy eyes
Scared as to what I might see next that could possibly be worse than my own cold death
As I peer out into a deserted field there is not sign that anything but crisp, freshly cut grass would be added to the unimaginative painting
Taking a step behind myself I realize that shutting my eyes would be wise
Because even my own life’s ending is better than being in a place where you feel lost no matter where you look
Standing in a crowd of running and screaming beings I clutch at my ears, and bend towards me knees
Looking around I notice that people are running through me
Not so bad, at least I’m not being trampled
But being invisible is not quite my style
Eyes close
Before they open once more I acknowledge that what I was doing was scrolling through life stories to find one that would be suitable to stay in
Before letting my lashes part from one another I promise to myself that where I awake next will be where I will hold my ground no matter what circumstances are set on my freshly cleaned slate
Eyes open
To a flat white ceiling
With no need to look around my mind tells me that I am sprawled out across my bed
I lay motionless, never to blink again
For because where I am may not be where I always want to be, but I must learn to love my way of living as it is
No more will I take for granted what it placed before me
I will only embrace what I love, and realize that everything else is only there for me to make mistakes and become a better person



Wayne, United States

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I was going through a rough time…


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