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Rooms with no doors
Doors with no rooms
and no windows
in sight

Crumble in fear
and hope I reach the surface
but we’re going down
Aren’t we?
I can feel it
at the tip of my toe
How we’re tipping
closer to the bottom
of a bottomless sea

But there are no windows
and the fish with no names
matter not to me
I’ll choke
in a desperate launch
As the metal breaks apart
It could be colder
if the water was wetter

I fear
my body will reach land
While my spirit descents
lying in dreamless sleep
at a bottomless sea

How could anything escape
this metallic cage?

And the light
the light slowly disappears
right above me
in a corner I can’t reach
You’re safe I whisper
but it died in squeaking engines

At least they had windows
on Titanic

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One of my biggest fears; submarines. They scare me shitless. I went to see one at a Marine Museum. I had to stand outside it for 15 minutes before I dared to step inside. And it was placed on land.

Posted: d. 11/12-2009.


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I have fears that I may cease to be.

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  • Cathal .
    Cathal .over 4 years ago

    claustrophobia ripped right through me as I read this! well done, NEVER going on a submarine!

  • Claustrophobia, you’re right on! And I’m not ever getting on one either, worst nightmare ever.

    – Kirstine Dieckmann

  • Trenchtownrock
    Trenchtownrockover 4 years ago

    You captured the fear very well in this piece..nice work.

  • skinnyman
    skinnymanover 4 years ago

    I have never been underwater in a submarine, only in a habour. It has always struck me that with the senses deprived of the ourside world, that it is the mind that is underwater not the body.:)

  • Mark Ramstead
    Mark Ramsteadover 4 years ago

    I have been on a tourist submarine off the coast of Hawaii. In the day and later we went again at night. It could take about 20 people a hundred feet down below. One of the things they did at night was turn off the lights and you could see the plankton glow like stars. I do not have claustrophobia, nor a particular fear of subs obviously, but wanted you to know that not all subs are military in nature. I have never forgotten trip…

  • I suppose it wouldn’t be that bad, if you could actually see the water around you.
    Actually, I could imagine it being quite beautiful, but I wouldn’t ever go down in one. Not even if it wasn’t military. I don’t like to be trapped under water. I am not claustrophobic either. I guess I just don’t like cages.
    But thank you for your story!

    – Kirstine Dieckmann

  • Mark Ramstead
    Mark Ramsteadover 4 years ago

    Do you feel trapped in say, a car?

  • No, but to me, a car is not a cage.
    I can open the door, jump out, and there is a slight chance I’ll live.
    If I could not open the doors or smash in the windows, then I would feel trapped.

    – Kirstine Dieckmann

  • Mark Ramstead
    Mark Ramsteadover 4 years ago

    Is there a name for fear of being trapped? I suppose a car could end up in a lake and become a trap. I assume you have not spent a night in jail, so I ask, have you ever been trapped in a cage or room? I only ask because this particular fear I do not have, vertigo yes, some anxieties, yes.

  • When I say trapped, I mean when I have no way of escaping.
    If the car ended up in a lake, then I could still open the door and swim out. But in a submarine I see no way of surviving if it starts going down.
    I don’t remember ever being trapped in a room. I’ve had dreams about it though.
    I just fear having no way out. And submarines are a very clear picture of that. Because there literally is no way to escape. If you stay in the submarine you die, if you get out of it you die (assuming it is sinking).

    – Kirstine Dieckmann

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