You're Not in Kansas Anymore

There’s no place like home. There’s no place like home.

Myra clicks her heels together, although she feels quite foolish doing so; but the part of her that desperately wants to believe in miracles reasons that if it worked for Dorothy, it will also work for her.

“Damn it,” she hisses and clicks her heels one last time. “There’s no place like home.” Sighing, she then looks out the window over the sink. It rained again last night, and today was going to be hot. What did the weatherman say? Ninety-eight? But what should she expect—balmy temperatures? This is South Louisiana, after all.

The grandfather clock in the hall begins to strike the hour.

She thinks, Seven o’clock and all is hell.

“I can’t believe the dean would call a meeting this damn early,” her husband says as he enters the room. No good-morning kiss. No hello. But John detests mornings, and when he absolutely must get up early, he vents his displeasure upon the world. “I don’t know how soon I’ll be home either. If it’s like the last meeting, it’ll drag on forever.”

Poor baby, Myra thinks. Ain’t life a bitch?

He walks to the table, glances down at the front page of the newspaper.

Myra recalls a time when her love for him was all consuming. When she could not breathe in his presence.

He says, “Classes start tomorrow, so why didn’t he schedule the meeting for then? Hell no, he had to ruin the last day of my summer break.”

It’s his fault I’m in this Godforsaken place, Myra thinks. Him and his career. She did not want to leave West Virginia. He did. She did not care about having more money. He did. And that lack of consideration for her feelings had marked the beginning of the deterioration of her love.

“Shit,” John says, “And I’m so close to finishing my book. A few more chapters and I’ll be done.”

Oh, yes, Myra thinks, your book. The one he’s been working on for a year now, a year during which she has tiptoed around on eggshells, keeping her discontent bottled up inside until it now festered like a raw, gapping wound.

“You know what it’ll mean, don’t you?” he asks but doesn’t wait for an answer. “When it’s published, I’ll become a full professor.” He smiles, pleased with himself.

And I’ll be condemned to remain in hell, Myra thinks. She glances back out the window. It’s September. Back home, days are getting cooler, nights chilly. Soon the leaves will be turning, and the mountains aflame with crimson, orange, and gold. There is no autumn here in South Louisiana—only a brief hiatus when vegetation dies, heat diminishes, and the world turns as gray and dank as dirty linen.

John walks to where she stands. “Gotta run,” he says. He brushes her cheek with his lips. “So what’re you doing today?”

Myra shrugs. “I’m not sure,” she says. But she suspects she is going home.


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  • Damian
    Damianover 4 years ago

    That’s great, enjoyed the story, and the disillusioned character. Funny how lives start to run on different tracks sometimes.

  • crzadkiewicz
    crzadkiewiczover 4 years ago

    Hi Damian.

    Thank you, and I am delighted that you enjoyed my story. Yes, it is funny how lives begin to run along different tracks, and it seems the farther they run, the more distant those tracks become, until the passengers can no longer see one another at all.

  • Trevor Penick
    Trevor Penickover 4 years ago

    Carol; your voice rings as remarkably genuine. Anyone married has had these feelings of “What happened” from time to time. The compromises sometimes last for years and seem way out of balance, but eventually the scale tips back to even; sometimes the momentum of it swinging back weighs it down in the other’s favor, even if just for a few moments. As with everything you compose, there are vivid and tangible descriptions that are eloquently written; you have the power to ease the reader into the hot water, gently letting an environment comfortably come into focus as it envelopes our mind. You also have the power to drop the reader into the scene like a low level night jump over hostile territory with sketchy intelligence on enemy positions. You hit the ground and roll waiting to be fired upon. Either way reading a piece you’ve written is always like sitting down in a roller coaster, and having the lap-bar lock down over your knees – there’s no turning back – we, the readers, are going for a little ride.

  • crzadkiewicz
    crzadkiewiczover 4 years ago

    Trevor,

    I really appreciate your kind words. I also admire your creative use of words and imagery. Then again, you know I am one of your biggest fans. :-)

    —Carol