New mexico is different….no family here….no kids here…no life here for me. This disease is killing me .I guess that’s why we came ..to get it out of my face. I can’t lift the little ones or play the way I used to… Oh, I won’t die soon, I will linger on through a number of years losing my ability to move at will…instead shaking from the medication. All I ask is that I do not shake for a couple of hours day to paint. I pray to at least do that. Don’t get me wrong now…I love my husband , my life and my pal Sammie, (the dog) and my art but It’s the Holidays and I miss the little feet running, the screams of delight, the smiley faces and runny noses, grandma this and that. At least I won’t have to eat an apple pie that looks like a volcano and act like I enjoy it. What a mess those girls made that day! Flour fight!!! flour fight!! and my kitchen…ohhhh what a mess!!! and the cat, Fleaberry, how many times did she take those trees down? I remember the trees would go up and the cat’s head would be sticking out between the branches. I swear she waited for the day the tree went up, batting decorations from one end of the house to the other. What joy she was.
Memories are what take us through the ages, the joy will fill our hearts once again reliving the memories of times past. Don’t let yourself forget even the small details.
Next year we will all get together to celebrate family, maybe in the summer…not at Christmas, but a family celebration…..that’s what is important…....family …my family.
This isn’t meant to be depressing…it’s life, my life and I’m not depressed just lonely for my kids. At least one will be here and what a gift that is , the best!!! I can share
my art with him and he’ll sit and paint with me…..We’ll make memories!! to cherish !!!
Betty Mackey, 10 months ago
The holidays can be hard on us with their mix of good memories and feelings of loss. I am so sorry to learn of your illness. At the same time I am impressed by your sensitivity and balance as you remember other Christmases and anticipate t his year’s visit and sharing of painting time together. I only know you through your art here on RedBubble but it communicates so directly with me. You have an inspiring spirit and I hope you will continue to do many great paintings in the years ahead. —Betty
cruserart, 10 months ago
Oh I have no doubt that I’ll be around. I knew long before I was diagnosed that I had something wrong and it’s funny how you know but your do. i had a very active life before and even up to the point of being daignosed I was hiking every weekend and swiming but had to be wary on the trails because my balance was not right. I finally stopped because the cliffs were too daunting. One close call was enought for me.
I had to quit my job and thought I could be a realtor. Got my license in Ca but the disease caused me to stop.
so in the last ten year my whole life is upside down. we moved here 2 years ago and I started painting. I plan to paint until I can’t anymore which will be long time because I know there is a cure round the corner.
I will have a happy holiday and you have one too!!
SharonAHenson, 10 months ago
May your holiday with your son be filled with love…good food and the memories you will make…. to think about for many years to come!!!!!!