I rang the Dr today and found out what it is ….. it’s called: Bronchiolitis – Interstitial Lung Disease. From what I am reading at the moment about it ….. it’s not good :( I can only hope it is a mis-diagnosis really, the visit to the specialist will confirm or dismiss this I guess. I guess (even though it’s too late) it is time to give up the fags eh. I need to get as much info on this as I can, see what my quality of life is going to be like now. It sorta makes sense in a way, I have been ill on and off now for 2 years … and had a bad time with similar symptoms a year ago. This last 8 weeks has been bad though, not only have I been sick with this … I have an ex gf here in WA who feels she has a right to continue to take for me. Those that know me well (especially those that have known me through that relationship and it’s awful ending, and even those that have known me since she left) will understand I strive for honesty. She is lying to those around her to drum up support.
Kim, you will certainly understand that. Already she is saying I was in constant contact with you, which as far as I can remember I only contacted you once during my relationship with her … and that was regarding our divorce. and at that stage I only got your Answering machine, so you rang me back. Right? The only other time I can remember contact with you is the day She and I broke up, when you rang me.
I don’t mind putting this public because it is the truth and not the reality she seems to want those around her thinking. And even though this upsets me … in reality … none of that has anything to do with her rights to her share of the profits I now make in selling my house. I don’t understand her even bringing those (she has mentioned other unrelated things to do with the relationship breakup) things up when they are so far removed from the legalities of profit sharing in the sale of the houses. The end of the relationship has nothing to do with what I do or don’t owe her. I think at this point her only defense in showing me why she should have such and such a share in the profits … is to belittle me in anyway she can. If this goes to court, the Judge will laugh at her and say What on Earth has that got to do with why we are here? I guess it just shows her character. Again, those who have been by my side through this, will fully understand what I am say. YES … there is two sides to every story and yes, there were things I did I should have done different. But that works both ways and apart from focusing on what I think is fair in this case regarding what she has already taken from me and what she is now wanting to take, I don’t think I have belittled her in ways not associated with that. I stand by what I feel, she is greedy and dishonest to herself. She really doesn’t have a moral strand of DNA in her body and I can’t wait for her to be out of my life forever.
Sorry …. needed that vent so badly. :(
And in case anyone cares …. the poems I post in my Journal …. the love I felt and the hurts …. they are all about her. Is that a dishonest person?