“The Twinkle in Your Eye”

We are the forgotten children
The aborted ones
Born dead
Wasn’t given a chance
A choice
A voice
Didn’t even get enough time to develop
So we can open virgin eyes to the beast
Who bloody moist
-vagina we oozed from
Silently
Didn’t even get to scream Fuck You
Didn’t get the chance to develop a voice
Funny how my birthday
Is the same as the day that I died
Had big dreams
While I was inside
The belly of the beast
And I say beast
For thats how she was treated
And not bitch
For I am not the son of a bitch
Just the son of a scared little girl
Terrorized by a son of a bitch
A poor excuse of a man
That only felt like a man
When he balled his hand
Into a blindfolded fist
That would aimlessly
Pound the woman
The girl
Into a swirl ….
A whirlpool of her own
tears
confusion
and
pain
And every blow delivered I felt
And I’m surprised that I made it through his abuse
Sorry mom for the excessive kicking I did
I just was trying to fight back since you wouldn’t
Couldn’t….
for love wouldn’t…..allow you to do so
And I know you love me
Heard the prayer you said the night before
My birthday
~slash
Death day
You had your
~Tender
~Warm
Loving hands
On your belly
And I felt your love conspire through your bruised and misused body
You said
“Dear little one pleased don’t resent me
But forgive me
I love you
And hope you will grow to love me
Though this decision I will follow through with
Will be the biggest regret
That will hunt me for the rest of my life
Though I will never
Get the chance to see you grow in the years
Please save a spot for me in heaven
When I’m done with my years
Done with the tears
And finally can hold you near
I love you forgive me
hope to see you soon
“my sun & my moon”
~amen”

And you weeped all night
Pillow soggy with salted tears
And when the deed was done
The seed
Uprooted passed the sun
I grew …..
Amongst the clouds and flourished…..
Into a star …..
To be the twinkle in your eye
“Twinkle Twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle, Twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are”

Well mom I’m your son
That is what I am
What I are
I live amongst the forgotten children
The aborted ones
Born dead
Wasn’t given a chance
A choice
A voice
But I was one of the lucky ones
To been apart of you
I love you
And I await the day finally hug you
sincerely and dearly……
apart of you
The Twinkle in Your Eye