Agony.

Good luck Colin! I hope you are able to paint soon.

It all sounds so horrific & not understanding why makes it all the worse.You know I wish you well, my friend, that the living nightmare will one day cease.

Hi Colin. I became an inactive member of rb a while ago but will break my silence for the first time here. You have my deepest sympathy my friend, but also my great respect for not giving in when there is so much inescapable pain. My son too has had similar pain for most of his life so I have at least a little understanding of how bloody unfair it can be. I’m sure I echo your many friends on RB who wish you well and hope that things will soon get better for you. Still having the courage and determination to paint when feeling so low is a mark of your character, especially when the results of your artworks are so skilled and enjoyed by your fellow members.

I am so sorry you are in such pain – this work of yours pictures it perfectly. It is like a demon gnawing at you. I hope it decides to leave you in peace and pain-free

Look after yourself mate and get painting soon.
cheers Neil

Colin, your image is on fire, just as your pain must be. I love your paintings and am amazed at the brilliance you have shown in picking up, then mastering watercolor so quickly, and recently in working with acrylics. I’m sorry for your pain, but so grateful for your art and for your friendship, here on RB. Much love,
—Frannie

so sorry Colin to hear that you are in a lot of pain….pain can seem like an evil demon and this is shown in your image….take care of yourself and I hope you are feeling better soon and back to creating your wonderful paintings ..hug for you.

Aloha Colin, the message in the image is so profound I almost didn’t open it as I have such a serious aversion to all things negative. But I am happy I hovered my mouse over the image as it was idling in the queue, to discover who the author is. Now that I have read your commentary my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry to learn you are suffering physically and spiritually from an affliction I don’t really understand. I truly pray that somehow the doctors will be able to help you so that you will be free from pain and free to produce your beautiful art once again. I do love your beautiful landscape paintings, just not this one, it breaks my heart. I wish you well Colin, Aloha ‘oe.

hang in there pal.i have similar problems, there is light at the end of the tunnel.its up to you to turn it on.p.s art will help….....jake

I can sympathise with your pain Colin, for many years now I have suffered from oesteo-arthritis and diabetes, so pain is no stranger. being able to paint and draw is also my therapy and without it life would be very bleak.
Here’ hoping you get some relief and keep up the great work !!

I feel the pain in this – maybe when the cramps improve a bit, you should forget about trying to produce beautiful stuff for a while and just paint how you feel? Could be cathartic. I sense you could put alot into painting doctors, for instance!

This is very strong and powerful. It sends a chill up my spine. Not sure if you intended this, but I see a very clear image of a ‘great white shark’s head’ coming out at the viewer…...hoping you find some relief soon Colin.

Your bold painting expresses the agony and “torture” you have shared
with me. I know from personal experience how difficult it is to cope
with unrelenting pain. Your painting reminded me of a wild beast, the color
red representing your nerve cells on fire with no relief. What a courageous
soul you are to fight the vicious demon represented in this piece. I also
was impressed with Sophie Shapiro’s healing painting and all the support
you have not to give up before exploring every avenue available to
managing your unbearable pain. I have great empathy for you Colin
and am like George Sanderson am no stranger to emotional and
unrelenting physical pain. Using the expressive arts is good therapy and
finding a competent doctor would be another great relief!!

Dear Heavenly Father
I ask specificall for Colin today
that you send him another avenue to play
something to sculpt
to help him when he needs to sulk
tell him not to beat him self up
when he feels he has had enough
teach him something to feel
so that he can be real
even some coloured dough
I know Heavenly Father that you have the solution
Your Dear child Colin needs your resolution
I place my trust in you
as peace desends
I pray to Jesus just for you
AMEN

The “beast”... is no the sin.. the affected sin of the unconsicous being…
this beast is panting for breath..in a turmoil of passion…
as if all that passio was a hell of fire, unfullilled.
Say… your pains a physical…but they are moral, for each cell, unfirmed…yelping,
wild…is trying to converse with you in a sub-realistic way.
And when reason is lost….
the shape and the colours come lie a volcano lava…..
slowly…or erupting….and our eyes..become, suddenly
blind.
A great portrait of your Beast suffering.
You have much to say…to show….to express…and I send you my heart to encourage your strength and inner vision. Without doubting… your work and you deserve this so much.
Rosa