I am sitting here
Confused..
When does all this shit go away
When does this paint end?
You said it was over
Yet you still tell me you love me
and you want to be with me..
If that was true you would never have cut me so deep,
you would never have gone on with your life like nothing was wrong,
like nothing has happened.
You would never have broken my fragile heart,
you would never have made me believe all of your lies..
I am so sick of feeling like this, seeing you with her.
You are so cruel to me.
Why do I still dream of you at night?
Why do I still long for your touch?
Why do I still dream of a future with you?
I cannot explain my feelings, they are so mixed up, they are screwing with my mind…!
Is there not a way to get rid of my feelings?
Is there not a way I can go on with my life, be happy again?

I dont know what to do or think anymore.
I am pushing away all the people that care for me,
all the people that love me..
Why do I still choose you over them?
You dont deserve my love anymore, you dont deserve any love.
You are the biggest asshole to rome this earth,
you use and abuse woman, you charm them into falling head over heals for you then you just push them aside…

I cant help myself for feeling this way.
It hurts to see you enjoy your life, like you had no pain, like you were never with me.
I just dont understand why you still give me hope for a future with you?
If you love her now, then why do you still mess with my head?
Am i not human to you?
Should I not be able to carry on with my own life, instead of waiting for something that will only cause me pain in the end?
Why do you enjoy playing games with me?
Does it give you pleasure to see me in pain?
To see me hurt the way I do?
You must be some kind of monster, to be able to look me in the eye and say you love me, when all you are doing is making my life a living hell….!

Why do I still get hung up on you?
I wish you could vanish, without a trace, so that I will never be able to feel you hurting me again.!

Please just get out of my head.!!!