(3/5 in a series)
Let These Sounds Caress Your Ears
I figured out my senior art show philosophical statement while listening to Smashing Pumpkins’ Thirty-Three. It made me think of how a lasting impression is left on you from a specific album, back when albums were more conceptual than they are now with purchase-by-song services. When listening to the album I remember that Melanie Thayer bought me the album for Christmas, my Freshman year of high school. I remember the music videos for the hits off the album “1979”, “Tonight, Tonight”, and “Bullet with Butterfly Wings” as well. I also remember that I gave this as a gift to a friend of mine and wished I could have bought it for myself, before I had received it. The feelings that it reminds me of are the awkward and emotionally unstable feelings of being a teenager which in some sense I never grow out of as an artist. When I hit a state of stability, I question myself and ask what has changed to make me think so “in the box?” The awkward flow from somber and beautiful progressions in a song like “Tonight, Tonight” to a heavy guitar laden shred like “Jellybelly” just keeps brining up the sense of not knowing where I’m going next. The more ironic part is as I listen to this album over and over, I just add to the trove of emotions and thoughts that get linked to this album which allows it to not just leave a footprint once but over and over.
The entire process of this body of work has been about me stretching for something outside of my normal and comfortable area of work. I chose to stay away from the things that I know I can do and leaped towards something I was yet to achieve. From the hand drawing to the semi-surreal subject matter, it’s been a series of humorous and awkward moments that I just worked my way through.