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You live in the mainstream
You once said
So as to get your material
Life experiences fed
At the expense of whoever
You don’t care
As long as your ‘secret’
Is kept unaware

For three decades plus
I’ve been the experience
Of your words
So what will you do,
When I’m no longer here?
Find another to use as your muse.

Your comings and goings
Although no secret to me
Since ‘78 when you said
It would be that way
And ’83 when a mutual friend told me
He had worked with you
In Nassau
Amid the oceans of blue
The same colour reflected
From me to you
For all the loneliness
I’ve had to endure
When you’re away to play
While I’m left at home
To stay
Where I go over the story
Constantly in my head
Of the lies of this life
We both have led
Fabrications of how it’s seen for them
But truths of how it is
For you and me
When you play the game of celebrity

Now the twilight of our years
Is starting to twinkle my dear
And I’ve held your ‘secret’
For over thirty years
But now I am tired, so sad and blue
Because I never really got
To spend my life with you
Too many partings
Along the way
With too many long and lonely days
On my behalf
Didn’t you see
I needed you for so many things
Affection and love
Plus a few laughs
Now I’m falling apart
With a heavy heart
So full of love
From the start
Of this wondrous journey
I’ve been a part of
Though kept in the dark
For your want and need
Of living a life in the mainstream
Not seeing or knowing
I’m floating away gently upon it
From the lack of affection
I so desperately need
From three decades of playing
This lost, lonely scene
All so you could recreate
A life for public view
Like it was some sort of
Wonderful dream
That got broken apart
By your many
Drugs and booze
The Rock N Roll circus
The circuit of your life
While mine was just as
The ‘secret’ long suffering wife
With debts galore
As it is for all
Living in the mainstream
Of what’s called life
At least they have their children
Those knowing wives
While I have never met mine
And only known them as eggs
Stolen from their chamber
Within my frame
Confirmed by a doctor
Known by us both
You paid a hefty sum
For that ugly deed to be done
And not just in money
But also your soul
And I cry
When I see a mother
With a babe in her arms
For that is one joy of life
You stole from me
Along with my heart,
My love,
My ecstasy
That was yours from the start
When this journey begun
On a train back in ‘71
Where you traveling to a movie
In a cinema
Near my family home
Was it the premier,
Of the flop it became?
Did you set the wheels in motion then
For what this life became?
Or was it in the islands
When my father sent me to you
That your scheme
For these scenes were set
But then my dear
You forget
You told me your ‘dark secret’
In ’79 after two previous attempts
I told you then
I would tell no-one
My loyalty you could trust

But a mistake I made
Your picture I flashed
To a woman at work one day
When she asked to see a shot of my love
It was she who spread the rumour
Of who my partner was
Not I
My only mistake
Was showing the photo
Of the man that I loved
But then I was the one
Who had to be pushed and shoved
Into confusing situations
By you
With your denials
Of ever telling me
What you did
And with your comings and goings
Spanning the globe
All because those in the industry
Knew you and confirmed
It to me as so
And when you left that label
They got rid of me too
From a job that I loved
I had to start anew
But you still denied
Ever telling me so
In your satirical way
Of enjoyment
That added to my confusion
Of you

So I left my motherland
For another across the seas
Where I sat one night
In a public bar
For you to see
But you looked right through me
As I did you
For you were with some strangers
I never knew
But knowing it was important
To you
I let things be
As it wasn’t up to me
To break the chain of your scheme
I was just a bit player in that little scene
You didn’t stay in that bar long
Neither did I
Returning to my makeshift home
To have a cry
For the injustice
Not only of our life
But the lies
You wove around us
To keep your ‘secret’ in the dark

And through all this
I still love you my dear
I always will
But for how long now
I do not know
As my spirit is slowly
Starting to go
Returning to where
From it once had come
The end of this dream for me
Has begun
And I long and hope to meet you
Again one day
On the bumpy road of life
In the eternal sway
Of energies uniting
In another day
Another way
Another time
When we can stay together
To enjoy each day
Instead of the comings and goings
That has been this life’s way

And I just wanted you to know
That I always knew you loved me
As I loved you too
That with loyalty
And trust
Our love
Will live anew
In the spectrum of a golden glow
When we are too old
To remember
The rocky path of our life
We will sit back
Maybe with teeth missing
And hair falling out
And laugh at the absurdity
Of what we went through
To keep your ‘dark secret’
Between me and you
For you are the only love
That I truly knew.

© C J Lewis, Sydney, 2010


C J Lewis

Joined March 2008

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