C J Lewis

Well, have I had a good day…yes….I always do. Why? Because I don’t allow myself to get into the shit of this worlds illusions. What do I mean by that….Well, I live my life as I see it to be…I don’t bow down to traditions and what it supposes to be the right way to life. Who says others ways are right? Well, the ones that are saying it. The only right way of life for me…is the way God gives me my life from moment to moment. Excuse me, my cat Monet is sitting here looking at me longingly…he wants a pat…be back in a minute…I had to give him a cuddle and a kiss on the head because after all…he is the one and only being with me at present. He appreciated it…he gave me a little nip back in his appreciation…and I love that …because, to me, it says…he understood my being there for him at that moment in time.

Well tonight, Christmas Eve 2008 was very much fun and interesting…I went to have dinner at a local pub (hotel/public house…oh for heaven’s sake…a place where you can get plastered if you so please) with my neighbour. We had a good night…met some lovely people, had some laughs and all in all had a very good night. Excuse me, Monet’s making noises….ah….now happy…he has left the room pleased that I paid him a little attention…that’s all that most animals ask…a little attention…and they repay you for that a million times over with their loyalty.

Well, once we got home…my neighbour into her flat…me into mine…I was sitting here…checking out the Redbubble as usual when noises came from below my balcony. Now, not one to ignore such noises…I went to investigate…and found two brothers and various cousins down below…having a bit of an ego battle of the wits…yep, one was going off at the other…I stood and witnessed this ridiculousness for all of about 5 seconds before yelling out “for heavens sake takes your ego battles elsewhere…this is Christmas night and who the hell needs to listen to you lot going off about yourselves” ….ah bliss, all went silent…for about 2 seconds…then they all started coming up under my balcony apologizing to me for disrupting the airwaves…and so they should…but at that moment I realized my words had gotten through…they saw themselves…they weren’t annoyed, or angry, with each other…they were annoyed at themselves for their limited views of their own being. They were just taking it out on each other.

You know, I have watched, and I mean watched, this world for the past 50 odd years and it never ceases to amaze me that people take out their own instinctual analyses of themselves as being that of another in their path. I have learnt we can only truly know ourselves….we can never truly know another….no matter how much we think we do…we can’t. We can fool ourselves into believing we know another but really all we truly know is what is presented to us and that my friends…is our self…from within to the without.

We can judge others to be as we believe them to be…but when we really look within ourselves what we are seeing is a part of ourselves that we don’t want to admit to actually being a part of our self. We mirror what we see of our self onto others as our own weakness of being…and that weakness is so poor that we don’t want to blame ourselves and therefore we put that blame upon another…a great weakness…not a strength. Sad isn’t it…but oh so very true. Can you honestly say that you know someone when you don’t live within their body…when you don’t have their experiences…or their emotions. No. No one can honestly say yes they do….for if they did they would be lying to themselves first and foremost. We can only ever know…our self…and even that can take decades, centuries and eons to come to know.

Well…to me, this Christmas Eve was a good outcome…the brothers all shook hands, I got a few kisses on the cheek after I went downstairs to check they were all okay…and the cousins left for their homes plus the police were happy that it was all settled amicably with each agreeing no one was to blame. It was a good outcome on this Christmas Eve for all.

These young men went off with a new enlightenment tonight of themselves…and hopefully they will remember that gift for times to come and pass that gift onto others that are in their lives and who they comes across in their lives…and it will make them happy to know they have helped someone in their path of life.

I hope yours has been as good and awakened as mine has been.

God Bless you all and have a very Merry Christmas

Love…which comes with peace…to you all

CJ