That woman in the mirror,
haunts me occasionally -
So as I was getting ready to go,
I just wondered, generally…
I hesitated for just a bit,
her gaze looking quizzically -
So I took one step back again in time,
to this girl I used to be….
She softly asked me questions,
slowly, one by one -
And I listened intently to each of them
until she was all done….
Have you forgotten the plans we made?
the elaborate ideas for you,
all of the marvelous wonderful things
and projects that we would do?
Where is the big fine house, she asked
with the gardens and the wrap around deck?
Where are the beautiful dresses?
Where are the jewels around your neck?
Where is the great education
and fame you dreamed with me?
The parties & dinners, the men you would meet,
with this slender girl I used to be….
Then I lead her down the hall,
Where photos of my life hung still -
I pointed at each child in turn,
and I told her I would make a deal -
If she could find just one thing better
than what I could account for
that she would win – and I’d be quiet,
and I’d say nothing more…..
I pointed to the first one there,
so wanting her pleased with me,
And told her SHE is my gem,
and she’s so precious to me.
The 2nd one is right here,
a boy to a man grown tall,
has made me prouder
than any career could ever at all.
Then there’s my 3rd child,
a little shorter than the first -
has so much love in his house to give,
no other man could boast…..
The 4th one was mine to raise,
but not mine a bit,
She’s beautiful in mind and soul,
far more than any garden yet.
So I turned to look at my mirrored guest,
thru tears she smiled at me,
And I saw the woman that I am now,
And it pleased the girl I used to be.
Do you wonder if the decisions you made in your life could have been done differently? Do you ever think that you don’t measure up to your own expectations, much less those that you think your parents had for you?