…Lost my nerve…should’ve felt it coming….
…Left the confessional…and I’m not catholic…not even Christian…I’m not anything…just alive…
…But it started to feel like a confession…or something…
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Edit…Hide…Edit…Hide…
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It can be hard to share parts of you that have been left behind…Not a part of the you…now…but the one from long ago…
…But they have to be connected…how could I be the me today…if not for the me of yesterday…?
…But now I feel naked…maybe gave away too much…
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Edit…Hide…Edit…Hide…
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…I’m a little afraid of people who throw stones…it can be easier not to put the target over your head…asking for it…
…No one has…but they could…maybe the rock is in their hand …ready…but they don’t throw…just think about it…a thought can be enough…
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Edit…Hide…Edit…Hide…
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…Life can be like that…you know…You stick your neck out…too far…and someone’s going to chop it off…maybe not today…maybe not tomorrow….But someday…maybe…
...It can be easier to keep yourself hidden…invisible…no one could even know you’re here…
…Which has it plus and minus columns…
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Edit…Hide…Edit…Hide……….
funkyfacestudio, 6 months ago
But if you are brave it doesn’t matter….you are you forever…......no one can change that, no matter what. hypothetical as well :)
Care in reply to funkyfacestudio’s comment, 6 months ago
...Ah… yes you could say brave….but sometimes bravery is mistaken…Foolishness…
...and yes we are who we are forever…can’t change that…shouldn’t want to…. : )
linaji, 6 months ago
Love the way you say it girl… edit/hide edit/hide.. moments we all do this no? wow I like your work here… I think it is true,, sometimes I just kick myself to put it out there. Here,, RB the safest place in the world.. then there is out there..edit/hide edit/hide..wow that feels real good.. great piece. must fave. Nice to meet you!
Steven Torrisi, 6 months ago
Cut and Paste or show and tell could be a title in reference as to what we information we regularly give out or restrict to those we feel comfortable with or unsure about pending their positive/negative reaction. In this day and age where everything is out in the public (put out there usually by ourselves) we all go through this process of self-promotion and self-denial.
Care in reply to linaji’s comment, 6 months ago
...Hey linaji… say it as you feel it…keeps life easy…i guess…I have moments when it’s easy to just launch something up here…and then I change my mind…and down it comes…
Nice to meet you too… : )
Care in reply to Steven Torrisi’s comment, 6 months ago
...true…we are ruled by our emotions… : )
rayy, 6 months ago
good job again! i love the anticipation in all of your peices. its breathtaking and heartpounding. so raw and honest. KEEP WRITING!=P
Care in reply to rayy’s comment, 6 months ago
....thankyou so much rayy…hearing that makes me want to put more up ….
...don’t think I could stop ..even if I wanted to ; )
deliriousgirl, 5 months ago
Hey babydoll, for me the writing is a catharsis and why spend life in fear of something nameless??? Authenticity in my life is something I’ve been working steadily toward for a decade or more. And every now and then you just have to be courageous and take the flying leap.
Care in reply to deliriousgirl’s comment, 5 months ago
...you know funny you should say that….been in the forefront of my mind …of late…I feel on the edge …ready to leap….but somethings still grasping my leg….but I’m closer than I’ve ever been….
....will be hanging around your writing a bit….think I’ll be reading it all… : )
deliriousgirl, 5 months ago
Ahhhhhhh Haaaaaaaaaa!!!! Careful, my precious. . .you are now entering the Twilight Zone!
I feel really serendipitous about you! And yes, I’m in the process of looking at all your works, how fucking brilliant you are!!!!
Care in reply to deliriousgirl’s comment, 5 months ago
.....giggle…have entered and shut the door behind me… ; )
....I feel the serendipity shower…glad it made me shelter in your words…have a lot to read by the looks of it…think I’ll take it slow…
xx
observer, 5 months ago
I enjoyed this, made me think of indecision and how sometimes you just have to close your eyes and jump.
Care in reply to observer’s comment, 5 months ago
...yeah…a lot of indesicion.. ; )....thanks for reading !
Damian, 5 months ago
LOL, I know what you mean, and how you feel :)
Every now and then I’ll write something and then sit for ages with the mouse over the ‘save’ button, even now still. And I’ve got stuff I’m still not ready to share, as at the moment I think it will reveal more than I want to reveal, LOL!
Thanks, this was great :)
Care in reply to Damian’s comment, 5 months ago
....glad you enjoyed it…and can relate!!...I find writing a good way of knowing how I’m really feeling…I just all comes out…!!!...bit of self therapy….I guess….. : )
lianne, 4 months ago
Love this – and if there is a writer anywhere who hasn’t felt like this, I haven’t met him or her. Or a friend or a lover either – lol. We do this in relationship just as we do it in art – edit/hide – until we feel safe enough to just let it all hang out there. Sometimes it backfires, but even then, we learn, we grow, we move on. Great read, Care – wonderful flow to this, nice stream of consciousness feel to it. Well done!
Care in reply to lianne’s comment, 4 months ago
Hi lianne : )...it can be hard not to….but I’m trying to do it less…just let it all hang out…only one life…why not… just be..
thanks for having a read and for such lovely comments : )
Jaybe, 2 months ago
A perfect way of explaining…....I so relate to this…....I’m still editing but a little less ;-)
Care in reply to Jaybe’s comment, 2 months ago
I do this a lot…or did….a lot less these days…sometimes…thanks Jaybe ; )