About a week or two before I decided to end all ties with Fiona, I had another girl, Susie, contact me. She was actually the first girl I emailed through the site, but had heard nothing after a couple of months, and thought she was not interested. It turned out she just didn’t have the internet connected. Once again, the common link seemed to be Buffy, and we shared a few favourite movies also. On getting her email I decided to be honest with her, and tell her about Fiona, and she thanked me for my honesty.
After things with Fiona were said and done I wondered about this other girl, Susie. Should I contact her? Would it look like she was a back up plan? Would I look so desperate to her or would I make her feel like nothing more than a convenience? Finally, I emailed her, assuring her that she was no back up plan, and that we seemed to have enough going for us to at least be friends. She replied, and she agreed.
After what seemed a very brief period of emails, online chat sessions and phone conversations (comparing it to my previous experience), we decided to meet at Eastland and saw the latest bad Sarah Michelle Gellar film at the time, once again going with the Buffy theme. We went to Myer and stood for what seemed hours admiring all the different Christmas decorations. We had dinner and I met her cats when she had to go home to feed them. All seemed to go well, and we agreed to do it again the following weekend.
The night before we were to meet up again, I went to the local shopping centre, Greensborough, and decided to buy her a Christmas tree, as when I was at her home I noticed she didn’t have one, and it may seem silly to some, or most, but I thought she should have one.
We saw another movie, and went to the Pancake Parlour afterwards. I was talking to her, but she seemed elsewhere, involeved in texting a friend on her phone. I admit it didn’t make me feel good, but continued on. Susie told me she wasn’t hungry, nor in need of a coffee. I then suggested we could try something different, play pool maybe, and she said okay to that.
I took her by my car before walking her to her’s and gave her the Christmas tree, and carried it as we walked to her car. I also let her borrow all of my Chris Isaak cds. We both got in and as she was about to start the engine, her phone rang. She got off the phone a few minutes later and looked at me, and said she would have to cancel the rest of the night. I asked her what happened and she said her friend’s horse had gotten stuck in the fence, as it has numerous times, and she needs Susie’s help to fix the problem.
She drove me up to my car and said goodbye. End of the second date.
The next afternoon I sent her a text message, asking if she would perhaps like to hang out for a couple of hours and get some decorations for her Christmas tree. She replied by saying, ‘You might be able to spend money freely, Brendan, but I have a mortgage to pay off. No’.
That was the last contact I had with her, apart from when she finally responded to my requests for my cds. She gave me her friend’s phone number, and said I could go there to get them. I arranged to do so, all the while feeling strange about the whole situation, trying to get my head around it. Wondering if things had been different had I not gone out and bought her a Christmas tree. Wondering if I’ll ever learn not to let others borrow anything of mine after knowing them for such a short time. I think these are all parts of me.
My friend and I took a drive to her friend’s place a few weeks later. I felt so awkward, as her friend acting normal and chatty throughout, and I didn’t know what to think. I wanted to ask her a bunch of questions, wanting to know how all this transpired. But I didn’t. I just left. And left Susie too.
Another tale in the strange journey to love.