The one that got away

In the beginning.
He came out of no where and I was instantly brought back into the place ,
Where my eyes first hit his.

Does he know it hurts every time I look at him?
Does he know it hurts every time he talks about her?
Does he know I’m loosing myself?
Just to smile back.
Just to make him the happiest he’s ever been.
Even if I have to die trying.

“Loosing you was the best thing thats ever happened to me..I would have never met her if we hadn’t slit up.”

Flashing back into my past leaves me
bitter
numb
empty
sad

Flashing back into my past leaves me
happy
aching
warm
loved once
Just like those summer nights..
O sweet sweet nights.

Was it my mistake or was it his?
Silly, how we cannot remember.
Silly, how we forgave each other so quickly.
Silly, how he smiles.

Wait

There was a feeling there..
Blushing perhaps?
Something left from the collapsed ashes in my heart?
Maybe.

Should I tell him?
No.
He’s too happy.
He has forgotten.

I haven’t.

And so I am left to sulk in my own vortex of memories.
Memories that leave me speechless.
Memories that leave me chocked with tears.
Memories that make me ache.
Despite his intentions I’m lost in a vale that covers me like a spider’s web.
No matter how hard I try I cannot forget.

In some small way.
I’m glad I am in his web.
It means I have emotions.
It means he was real.
I was real.
That what we had was real.

I am no longer bitter and I am no longer happy.
I am done crying and I am done smiling.

After all a great author once said
“Don’t cry because its over. Smile because it happened.”

The one that got away

Kat Darwin

Joined April 2008

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This is my story about how an important person in my life makes me feel. Even though we are over I’ll never stop loving him. Even if I have to run on empty for the rest of my life.

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