Relapsed, But I Still Got You, And It Makes Me Strong

after shedding the bright light of love on me
you sent me scurrying back into my dark, secluded cave of sorrow and caution
but now that all is right between us again
i’m still finding it hard to open up to the rest of the world
like i had before The Happening

when we first met
before The Happening
you brightened my world
like my own personal sun
you beckoned me out of my cave
and out i eagerly ran
ran right into the world
ran right into happiness
ran right into your arms
without caution
i opened my arms to the world like never before
welcoming them in with that crazy smile you plastered on my face
no one
could bring me down
i was happy
not sad
not mad
and not the slightest hint of my depression was in sight
i was the happiest i’ve ever been

but then The Happening came

brief as it was
though it did leave it’s mark on this newfound happiness
smaller than i had assumed it would
thank goodness
but a mark nonetheless

once The Happening ended
all was right again
i thought
most was right again
everything between you and i
that is all right again
just as it had been before
but my new peace with the world
that was not completely right

back into my darkness
i’m now
once again
finding it difficult to let
the world
the endless happiness
back in
things are starting to tear me down again
the sorrow creeps back in
and things begin to fall apart
i’m am no longer immune to the depression
with endless happiness as my antidote

all is not right
but at least
is right
we fought The Happening
we won

everything in my life being picturesque
just for that one moment in time
it was merely a perk
i reveled in it
took advantage of it to the fullest
and loved every moment of being to open
and while that ease has fled me once again
i don’t mind
because the one thing that truly mattered the most
the one thing that caused that happiness
didn’t leave
didn’t leave
so although my world may no longer be “perfect” like it had so briefly been
i know that when things get tough
i have someone who will always make all the badness disappear
someone to brighten my world like my own personal sun
someone to plaster that same crazy smile back on my face and to send those butterflies battering my insides
i have you
and that is all that matters

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just reflecting on life as it is right now :) which is the best it’s ever been!
reflecting on where i was, where i’ve been, and where i am right now.
all thanks to Him :)
The Happening- ha i don’t literally call what happened by this title. i don’t call it anything, as i try to not think about it, as it is in the past and no longer matters. i just felt like giving it a name for the purpose of the writing ;)
im not sure how it comes off to you guys, but, overall, the tone of this writing is supposed to be happy, content, hopeful, etc, etc, whatever :) lol i just wanted to clarify that because i wasn’t sure if that’s how it read :P

hoping for Many Many more months in the future baby *3-19-10 xoxo <3


  • KevCantStop
    KevCantStopalmost 5 years ago


    Really all I can say.
    Let me shine my light on that darkness baby =)

  • you already do my love :) don’t even have to try ;D <3

    – bloodyactress

  • westynimages
    westynimagesalmost 5 years ago

    you paint with words that is a many colored pallette of expression!!

  • i quite like how you put that ;) thank you so much!

    – bloodyactress

  • S .
    S .almost 5 years ago


  • thank you? ;D

    – bloodyactress

  • nikmd
    nikmdalmost 5 years ago

    lovely words…wonderful!!!!

  • thank you very much!!! :)

    – bloodyactress

  • S .
    S .almost 5 years ago

    lol that was a good wow !

  • haha alright :P thank you very much for reading :D

    – bloodyactress

  • Kim J
    Kim Jalmost 5 years ago

    very cute (:
    well written too.
    i can relate :D

  • thank you :) glad you can connect with the piece

    – bloodyactress

  • KevCantStop
    KevCantStopalmost 5 years ago

    I love seeing all these wonderful comments about a piece so beautifully written about none other than me.
    Just reminds me of how truly lucky I am to have you baby =) <3

  • and im glad im getting so much wonderful feedback ;D and it’s all thanks to my amazing inspiration and forever fiancé, you :) i swear, i’ve Never gotten So much feedback and favorites on pieces than yours ;) so, in far more ways than just this one, i am more than lucky to have you too :) xoxo

    – bloodyactress

  • boswell20
    boswell20almost 5 years ago

    deep and compelling…superb write!

  • thanks a bunch!! and thank you for taking the time read! :)

    – bloodyactress

  • Mark Ramstead
    Mark Ramsteadalmost 5 years ago

    Does anything on earth make a girl as happy as a guy who is into her as she is into him?

  • hmmm…i think not ;D hahaha
    however i must say that, personally, theater is quite a close second ;)

    – bloodyactress

  • Mark Ramstead
    Mark Ramsteadalmost 5 years ago

    That’s right your an ACTRESS! Apparently a bloody good one… ; )

  • haha well im trying to work my up in the world ;) but acting and singing will always be my first love in life (although that first may be tied ;P)

    – bloodyactress

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