Tread Softly
NOTE – this is about/for my ex
i needed to write this so badly for so many years
he took something from me that cannot ever be replaced
my hands shake constantly, people say ‘why do your hands shake like that?”
i am a walking nervous wreck b/c of the losses bestowed upon me…
we all walked on eggs for years around him.
He’s a controlling narcissistic sociopath, perhaps a psychopath. The real sin is the kids had to stay with him.
but anyhow that’s what this is about.
What he did to others with words-actions & ‘joking around’
Have hurt more than punches & stabs
they have gone deeper & lasted longer & haven’t healed so well
It is no accomplishment
anyone can do this if they are so inclined
what is scary is why someone would be so -inclined
It’s hard to think about
If anyone in a similiar situation ever needs to talk, i have an open ear…
Tread softly with my children whom you pulled out of these arms
to ruin another child’s life with your adolescent charms
& make my baby think her world’s not what she perceives
& try to have her lose her grip of life’s realities
Life ‘ain’t no bowl of cherries’ you forever vowed to me
& then set out to prove it
How cruel could one soul be ?
So cruel without a flinch he took what meant the most to me
not because he cared at all
nor he ever would
Not because ‘I’ was too sick’
~ just because ‘he could’
So I while away the years -
you see – you’ve taught me to be numb
I guess you taught me something, then
besides how to live on crumbs.
So mess with her ~ just try…you’ll find
~ she has a built-in armor
Since you believe in nothing
You may be surprised by Karma
The longer that it takes
to come around and find you hiding
The harder you will break
and it’s your time it’s now biding
It’s been like serving time as
You’ll be so glad to know
but i’ve survived and, sometimes, thrived
My creative side has grown
YOU only serve yourself – YOU have no other master
You’re a taker and a loser
& each day you’re losing faster
Make certain that you treasure
the time that’s left for you
Drug and drink at leisure
it’ll eat you through and through
I’ve seen it happen often –
You see, it’s what I do
Most broken ones I help, though
Have souls – so unlike you
You have had life’s treasures now
for many, many years
And you’ll not get that time back
who you are – to them, is clear
Love you? I doubt that they can
You’ve never shown them this
Perhaps they’ll give you pity
And you’ll have to live with it
I don’t know why you’re so afraid
in fact, I do not care
You’ve ruined far more than you’ve saved
Just know you’ll get your share
And when the demons meet you
& you can be sure they will -
You’ll scream as they defeat you
Because the world will not stand still…
Trish Cooper
very powerful-ittook amazing courage to write…
let the healing begin…abuse either mental or physical is UNACCEPTABLE..
TAKE CARE!! I am also just a bubblemail away. I wrote one earlier today on
domestic violence too.