an antidote to pears
Wise advice from a friend’s father:
Never fall in love with a man’s potential.
an antidote to pears belongs to the following groups:
Lesbian and Bi-Women's Art, The Word Tree and WMGI knew
We always do
Us women with dark eyes and darker hearts
And the intuition of the ages
Sending counsel
Along the wavesong of our blood
Not this one
He’ll never use your name
And read your diary
When your back is turned
And your heart is full
No…..nor him
His fear of his world
Will make him resent
Your sure, strong strides
And your weathered passport
Him?
What are you thinking?
You’ll never breathe deeply
With his eyes over your shoulder
And his grip on your arm
Scoundrel
Fool
Serial killer
And you
The wicked wench in me
Turned to the wise woman
And said soothingly
You’ve been working so hard.
You need a break.
I can take it from here
I saw the curl of your lips
The shrug of your shoulders
And the truth in your timbre
When you told me
“Bell, I can be a real bastard with women.
Just so you know.”
What kind of man are you
That you need to apologise
For fucking me over
In advance?
And what kind of woman am I
That I just smiled
And said nothing?
The mystery you read in my face
Was really the poison
Starting to spread.
But your eyes held that speck of violet
And you smelled like pears
So I placed my hand over the mouth
Of my wise woman
And whispered in her ear
This one will be worth it
And I leapt.
But I knew.
Us women with dark eyes and darker hearts
Always do.
© bellmusker 2008
deliriousgirl
OH hell yes!!! I’ve taken that fatal leap also more times than I’d care to admit.
This is just excellent, dearheart!!!! It speaks to me in a very authentic way that I don’t see much of around here!
Lisa Jewell
Wonderfully written, there is no question….painful there is no question….exists there is no question…
I can’t help but think of what I wrote earlier today – Match
And remain optimistic that for every incineration there is a burning fire of life…
This I wish for you, and so much more….
adgray
Well written Lady, you capture the devil’s attraction and the conflict of desire for such danger in superb fashion.
From a woman who had dark eyes and a very damaged heart LISTEN TO THE WISE WOMAN!!! they are never worth it! lol :o)
bellmusker
I always, always listen to that wise voice. She’s taken care of me in many a dangerous situation. I’ve really only gagged her once – with this fucker – and I’m still choking on his poison to this day.
Just makes the eyes blacker.
roybarry
But your eyes held that speck of violet
And you smelled like pears
Bell, I’m not going to apologise for us men, afterall, I would be here a very long time. All I will say is that you have crafted the most fabulous Art from whatever dark place he took you to.
bellmusker replied
Thank you Roy, I appreciate that. This is in no way an indictment against all men – just this one with the violet eyes and cold, cold heart.
roybarry
Do you want me to send the boys to have a word with him??
bellmusker replied
Haha, I think he’d be a lot more afraid of the damage my women could do…but thanks!!
flower68
Most of us have probably been here.us women with dark eyes and damaged hearts,I so love that. great writing.
bellmusker
you have crafted the most fabulous Art from whatever dark place he took you to
He got some pretty amazing songs out of our union too.
PJ Ryan
Bell, yes, yes nodding head yes! .. and that’s gotta have something to do with me having dark eyes too :)
this is something so many women (and probably some men) can relate to .. xx
Metamorphosis
Bell you are an amazing writer & you sound like an amazing woman…. dark eyes and damaged hearts… wow…
cheryl morrice
i think i need to cry.
warmsugarcube
I already did. oh you nailed it, you really did. i’m all out of words now..
Anne van Alkemade
If they apologise in advance, listen! Those words fell on my temporarily deafened ears too!
loramae
Bless that wise old hefer…for saving us from ourselves!!! Great writing Bell…I have so been here!
Laurie McClave
Bell, I am crying and love it! I too know that place as many women do, it’s a hard road but you need to go and take it…..
and Roybarry, he did not take her there, she took herself!
Luckyvegetable
I’m lost for words, bell…
you are a talent, a treasure, and wonderful person, and I’m very very glad to know you
thanks for putting this up. I love it =)
MissKristy
Yes…we always do…. but one of these days, we will leap and be gently caught and carried the rest of the way. Like Lisa, I remian optimistic..and wish so much joy for you my dear GGB wench xox
Jasmine Paul
This is wonderful – funny, tragic, perfect.
Melissa Vowell
I miss you
SwaySlayer
“Us women with dark eyes and damaged hearts”
I think I shall make this my life motto…
A great piece that hit really close to home for those of us who have been fucked over in advance…
bellmusker replied
Thank you; I’m so pleased that my piece spoke to you but at the same time sorry that you understand it as well as you do. If you know what I mean!
I followed this up recently with a piece that’s knocked much of the vitriol out of me where this man is concerned. it was a spell in words, and can be found here
raoultiger
This is terrific writing. Very heartfelt. How can I make myself smell like pears?
bellmusker replied
Ah, I’m a sucker for food smells on flesh…..I often smell like honey and cloves myself. An acquired art!
Thank you for your comment above, I appreciate it.
jtaft
Oh wow, this just speaks to me and leaves me speechless! The dark eyes and damaged heart captures that poison that’s in all of us and allows it to bubble to the surface. Thank you. You are really talented.
bellmusker replied
Thanks so much for your wonderful words…..ah, that poison in all of us. Sometimes I think writing is the only antidote.
Well, writing, whiskey, and extra rich pralines! Every bit helps….
jtaft
haha and now now don’t forget the doritos and red wine! My god I keep coming back to this piece and reading it again and again.
Kaimarie
get me some vodka, very good
Alix Purcell
Great write bellmusker!
bellmusker
Remember, remember, remember…..
Raven5
Extraordinary writing Bell….
I truely admire your style.
bellmusker replied
Thanks Raven! I recently ran into this pear-scented ex-boyfriend of mine again, and so have flicked this piece of writing to the top of my folio. I never want to forget its lessons. Thank god for Red Bubble, hey? :-)
Raven5
Oh God yes!.....
All I can say is it’s nice to have Redbubble as our outlet and our counciillor! lol
April Mansilla
this is so beautiful …in everyway …ifelt myself grinning though it and frowning the other times…a fav for sure …talented girl you are
bellmusker replied
April, the strangest thing just happened. Last night I put this piece to the top of my folio, though I hadn’t spoken to this pear man in a long time. And last night, he got in touch. And I know I need to come here and remember all the poison our relationship contained….ah, writing is sometimes the best therapy, hey?
Thanks for your comment, I always smile when you drop by my work.
PS am meeting him for coffee though….let’s see if the antidote is still as effective.
Leith O'Malley
Scoundrel, Fool, Serial killer..
You sweet talker lol!
Good luck Bell :)
April Mansilla
your writtng called him :) had a plan of its own :)
raymondoantonio
I’M GLAD MICHELE RECOMMENDED YOU TO ME!! YOU PAINT INSIGHTS AND WISDOM! I SHALL DEVOUR ALL YOUR WORKS.BRAVO!!
bellmusker replied
Thank you so much….it’s a shame I don’t always listen to my own wisdom, but at least it’s there, hey? Cheers!
Kristin Reynolds
A-fucking-mazing. this kills! I’m one month shy of this very thing, my wise woman finally ripped her fucking gag off and screamed from the mountians top until i listened. right on. awesome! love it! Kristin :)
bellmusker replied
Kristin, maybe you can give me a lesson, for this pear man got in touch last night…... my wise woman has a husky voice from all the ‘wake up and deal with this!’ hollering she’s had to do! This piece has been lurking at the bottom of my writing for some time, but I put it back on top last night to remind me of all the lessons I’ve learned. May your wise woman keep her freedom, and your heart safe. And thanks for the lovely comment!
Kristin Reynolds
My only lesson would be this: never listen to her voice filtering out of the man himself…oh, they will be sweet, as sweet as the sweetest nectar, but that is not her. no. that is her liquered up by lies and “too litte, too late”. hope you get my crazy, metaphor…metaphor is my bitch. :) anyway, good luck, you know. we always know. know it. and do. love, K :)