It makes me wonder,
Every time I hear the thunder
In my mind sound again
Why I let you drive me insane
Yet again I muse
Upon the years of abuse
I curse you out in more ways then one
And cry for you until morning come

From an early age you taught me mistrust
Now the painful result could make my heart rust
From lack of use and care
Because you never wanted to be there
But decided to stay out of spite
You put me on and messed me up, down, left and right
You cause my tears
You created my fears

You’re the reason I hate winter
You pain me like a festering splinter
You broke my heart, you had to be the first
And it hit me like a ten tonne weight, it hurt the worst
I can never forget that pain
It will always be there like the pouring rain
Even though the sun might shine
From time to time, I don’t know how to heal this heart of mine

They say that time will heal all
But why does it take so long to get that call
That tells you you’re alright
There’s nothing left to fight
You can get on with your life
You can remove that knife
From your back without fear
I’m still waiting, waiting right here

Maybe someday I can let someone truly in
Let them see all my weaknesses, every sin
But until then the walls just get higher
And I search for answers from a liar
Who never knew what was at stake
The day you decided to forsake
Me in every way, to leave me here alone
My mother, my greatest heartache sewn