I never dreamed that the day would come when I had to write you a letter explaing how I feel instead of telling you to your face. And it kills me to admit that this is the only way you’ll maybe listen to me.
By the time you read this letter Damien and I will already be gone. You have to understand that I love you with all my heart and it isn’t easy for me to leave, but I don’t know who you are anymore and it scares me. I realize that none of this would have happened if I hadn’t insisted that you come with me to visit your mother, but I will never regret my decision.
You need to know that it’s not fot my sake that we’ve left, but for the sake of our son. I can deal with being ignored, I have been dealing with it for most of my life, but Damien can’t. He’s only five and he hasn’t had his heart broken yet, and I’ll be damned if I let you be his first heartbreak. He absolutly worships you and never in his life have you ever been able to tell him no, or that you didn’t have time to play with him. He doesn’t understand why you’re so ‘busy’ all of a sudden and I have run out of excuses for you. It breakes my heart everytime he asks me why and I can’t tell him because I don’t know. The castfallen look he gives me… if you would pay attention everytime you brush him off I’m sure it’d break you heart too. Our leaving is the best thing for him, and even if he doesn’t understand why now, he will someday.
Westen, I don’t know what happened to us, but I have no regrets of our life together either. It was good while it lasted. Just so you know, in one weeks time I will give the order and the Conquering Crusader will leave this system, we just might come back one day, but you have until the end of that week to change my mind.
Good bye Westen,
Ok this is an excert from the second book in my Love and Piracy series (unpublished and unfinished). The Conquering Crusader is Laina’s pirate spaceship, Westen is her husband, and Damien is her son. This is the series that I’m entering in the Random House Comp, well the first one anyway. If any one is curious they can Bubble mail me and I can send them a version of the First Book. I don’t have all of the second one written yet.