From Beggining to End

Passion….Burning
Feel the yearning
Clutching, grasping, grabbing holding
Containing, retaining, sustaining
Constraining
Needing, Aching
Intense emotion
Unconditional devotion….
Unrealistic expectations
Dreams of tommorow….
Rage against the sorrow
But only a short time to borrow
This illusion is shattered
Hopes and dreams battered
Asking why?
Ashamed to cry
As if it ever did matter…
Being denied
Wounded pride
Hearing her lies
Scorching my skin
This heat from within
Driving….compelling
Hunger…need…
Wanting to feed
On what is invisible to see
The force that attracts…
The two together
Then pulls them apart again
Giving….Taking
Destroying….Making
So oblivious to what’s at stake
Comprimised every part
So eager to give away my heart
Too incomplete
From the start
To blind to leave
Too hard to breath
Truth revealed
Our fate is sealed.

Venessa Upshaw


Be2ru

From Beggining to End by

How do you sum up 4yrs of love and dissapointment?
this is MY way…but it is only one way….
To chronicel the impact she left on me…

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Comments

  • sweetscent62
    sweetscent62about 4 years ago

    This is beautiful Vanessa : ) I think we’ve all felt like this at some point in our lives…thanks for sharing.. Wendy

  • Be2ru
    Be2ruabout 4 years ago

    thank you for taking the time to read it..and i’m honored that in some way…you could relate. Isn’t that what we all want..even in some small fashion…to feel connected?

  • LindyRStrow
    LindyRStrowabout 4 years ago

    I think it is more than just being connected, perhaps the safety in letting go and trusting. Each time we are faced with vulnerability, it seems we must go to our doubts and filter them out. Beautifully wrote.

  • Be2ru
    Be2ruabout 4 years ago

    i like the way you think…you seem to have positive energy….and i love to see that in people…Being in love is hard…losing love is harder….but never knowing love is the Hardest.
    i have no regrets…and learn from every experience…thank you again for your insightfull comments.

  • fleur14
    fleur14about 4 years ago

    ‘unrealistic expectations’ – still tryin t understand that in my own life :-)
    for me this captures how love in the moment is one thing, but extended n played out thru our tangled minds in time… often quite another! why do we hurt each other?
    i like what y say above, no regrets etc. i too hope these affairs of the heart teach us about love n loving wt ‘unconditional devotion’, open every time. respect :)

  • Be2ru
    Be2ruover 2 years ago

    I find, Fleur…that with out ever even being aware we meet people and expect them to…fulfill us or complete us..and when you are unaware of that hunger within you…it can truly eat away at any relationship. it’s good to be selfaware..if only just to gauge yourself and adjust things accordingly…thanks ever so much for your opinion and for sharing;