Tied up in knotts….
Can relief be found?
Or does it have to be bought?
Or is it illusive when it knows its being sought?
Its true…I had thought
I had left it behind.
My friend I assure you I miss you NOT.
You never know what you have till you GOT…..
Freedom…..Breathing room…..You’ve come back far too soon.
The shock of YOU again.
I reel…and feel sick….and weak….
I am suprised and just how much you make me meak.
And once again….I see…That I need… To seek…..Refuge.
Just what would it take to be rid of you?…..To be free of the….Abuse….You…..
Inflict within me….This burning beast.
This hungry predator
Frothing at the smell of fear…..Where?…..In ME? This can’t be!
But to admit…Is the first step to being free.
Of any addiciton…condition….Inner-implosion
I know that I’ve hid it
I’ve been it
Its lived in me
But now is the time to be free
The hatred in the shadows…No longer stalks me
The memories of the past no longer haunt me
In a time long since gone
Just tattered memories
It the gap between….Then and now
Yesterday vurses Tommorow
Its a time of acknowledgements and discovery
Acceptance and recovery
I’ve made it here and I am safe
No longer do I wait for the day
For someone else to chase my demons away
I’ve made it…I’m alive
I’ve gotten here after all this time….
So though you tie me in knotts today
I know you are…. not here to stay
because now I see
Now I’m aware
And I no longer allow you to exist down there.
This touches upon the subject of living with Anxiety disorder….and the road blocks one must overcome…And then how I came to REALLY learn to live with it. To control and to not let it control me. I know that many live with this condition every day of thier lives…and who are surrounded by people who just dont’ understand….and I just wanted it to be known…..that somone soes understand….And most importantly…that It can be over come…I’m proof..that there is light at the end of this tunnel.