Tied Up In Knots
Tied up in knotts….
Can relief be found?
Or does it have to be bought?
Or is it illusive when it knows its being sought?
Its true…I had thought
I had left it behind.
My friend I assure you I miss you NOT.
You never know what you have till you GOT…..
Freedom…..Breathing room…..You’ve come back far too soon.
The shock of YOU again.
I reel…and feel sick….and weak….
I am suprised and just how much you make me meak.
And once again….I see…That I need… To seek…..Refuge.
Just what would it take to be rid of you?…..To be free of the….Abuse….You…..
Inflict within me….This burning beast.
This hungry predator
Frothing at the smell of fear…..Where?…..In ME? This can’t be!
But to admit…Is the first step to being free.
Of any addiciton…condition….Inner-implosion
I know that I’ve hid it
I’ve been it
Its lived in me
But now is the time to be free
The hatred in the shadows…No longer stalks me
The memories of the past no longer haunt me
In a time long since gone
Just tattered memories
It the gap between….Then and now
Victim survivior
Yesterday vurses Tommorow
Its a time of acknowledgements and discovery
Acceptance and recovery
I’ve made it here and I am safe
No longer do I wait for the day
For someone else to chase my demons away
I’ve made it…I’m alive
I’ve gotten here after all this time….
So though you tie me in knotts today
I know you are…. not here to stay
because now I see
Now I’m aware
And I no longer allow you to exist down there.
Venessa Upshaw.
Comments
Wow Honey I thank you for this morning inspiration. All though our demons are always are part of who we are and how we cope, we must forge forward and make the world a beautiful place, a safe place and now that we are an important piece of reality
Lindy
You are VERY weclome!…I am glad to give some one….anyone..a piece of positive contimplation…and Yes…you can never give up on yourself…and the world is a beautiful as we see to be….And thank you for your beautiful comment! {hugs}
im living with borderline personality disorder…they finally put a name to the deamons that haunt me…this poem is piece of me and im so glad there is hope because i was sure there was no hope left. thanks so much for the little ray of sun shine in this dark world of mine :)