I sit here
flipping through calendar pages
thumbing over empty date boxes
chewing
killing this fucking pen
grinding it down between my teeth
I wince as
dark cerulean liquor blows from the tip
painting my pink tongue black
it drips down my throat
sticking while I swallow it deeper
I gag
then catch my composure
and will the inky mess into my stomach
drowning it in yellow bile
the warm glass of water
laughing at me from the desk
goes ignored
as I shove my cold shoulder towards it
I dip my fingers into my saliva
bubbling with disgust
and dribble it across my knee
smearing out a picture of
every emotion I’ve fondled
and played with
who needs a fucking pen?
I hurl it against the wall
splattering an ultramarine
composition of constellations
onto a milky firmament
bare outlined squares
stare up at me
from the
unscheduled itinerary
I briskly rip the immaculate geometries
from their ignorant grid
reveling in my powerfully
chaotic paper creation
my hands are stained
with ink and unbridled tears
“Baby?”
I swivel my ragged face
in response to your curious inquiry
my hair desperately clinging
to my moist flushed cheeks
“Baby!”
you kneel
straddling my shaking frame
your soft fingertips blot the
remaining sable streaks from
my lips and you embrace me
amongst all of my
capricious clutter
“Oh, baby…”
you restore tranquility
to the vellum demolition
and knot your arms around
my reluctantly yielding torso
melting me
with your devotion
“I’m here, baby…”
you cradle my fears
rocking them into placid sighs
and rejuvenate my confidence
in everything we share
while we intertwine our souls
amidst the flurry of
simulated snowflake scraps
“I’m here.”
Compose
this is Lys in love :)
flower68, 7 months ago
crazy in love…Lys in love is beautiful :-)
greenbeards, 7 months ago
...this is touching, a genuine miasma of tugging emotions – i wanna hold your hand even.
Yasemin Sumner, 7 months ago
oh… this made me feel all wavery…no, no, just something in my eye.
you’re getting too good at this…
butchart, 7 months ago
very beautifully written…emotion filled to the max…. great place for an image to start…:)
LindaR, 7 months ago
rode every word ~ what a ride ~ there is no way to not feel the simmer & boil of your emotions as my own ~ just so very well done xx L
Ushna Sardar, 7 months ago
fabulous writing!
TeriLee, 7 months ago
Wow…very intense…great writing!
Rachael Hope, 7 months ago
Oh I just love that first “Baby?” It’s like a sudden awakening from a dream, but then you decide to go back to sleep and the dream gets even better! I love the careful description of the pen this bit especially “splattering an ultramarine
Composition of constellations” The structure of this piece is so elegant and effortless
Vimm, 7 months ago
Thanks for being the first person to view my stuff. I liked this piece of writing and at the time I had
my friend playing this black metal band embraced and a I started to read your compose piece along to the embraced song. It just happened to fit into that time frame and mood. Dark and sensual. The ugliness of beauty. Some words were outisde of my vocabulary (Vim needs a dictionary) thanks again for skimming my page
Rella, 7 months ago
I love this. The idea of creation, the loss of control and the comfort of love. Powerful!
LostBoy1, 7 months ago
Love how you`ve done this although it makes me jealous ;)
Krisso, 7 months ago
Lys. you so have to make a book, really you should. I’ll get rich so I can publish it if no one else will! You are amazing, really. You are!
Lys • in reply to Krisso’s comment, 7 months ago
haha, aww krisso, you’re far too kind :)
Jboo09, 7 months ago
Simply amazing, gave me chills…
Justin Lee, 6 months ago
coal and ink to date our bones. well written.
Jessica Tremp, 6 months ago
“I’m here.”
Nicole Ryan, 4 months ago
oh !!!
this is stunning .. so emotive … truly beautiful (and heart rendering) writing.