Uplifted
Apparently I am unable to play the relationship game. Apparently I come across as too needy, too psycho – whatever. Apparently, loving someone and expressing that love in the form of care is not permissable in this day and age of casual and meaningless sex and relationships. To show someone you care by wanting to touch them, to look after them, to want them… is just really, really bad shit. Apparently…
I lost someone I loved deeply over three years ago. I wanted to open my heart to new possibilities and new love. I know it will never be the same as the old – but nothing ever is, is it? I thought it would be simple – find someone with that connection, that chemistry and work on it. But apparently its not enough to be honest and simple. I give too much. I wear my heart on my sleeve for all the world to see. I am completely and totally guileless and trusting.
And thus, people take advantage of me.
Don’t get me wrong.
I don’t blame anyone for this – just myself.
I take full responsibility for being the way I am.
But I don’t want to change me either.
And if that means that I have to live the rest of my life being single, well thats ok by me.
I am who I am.
The good as well as the bad.
The happy as well as the sad.
Everything…
I just am the way I am – no apologies, no explanations, no justifications, no nothing.
And a world of thanks to the people who DO love me – all of me – not just the superficiality of a physical exterior but unconditionally the heart and soul of this woman I am…
I thank Darren Hayes for this most poignant and perfect song… he says it the way I feel it…
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TextureoftheSin
Beautiful light and tonal contrast – your pose and expression is speaking
awdigitaldreams replied
thanks Totsie:) xoxox
dtomw
Hey, man, don’t despair. I am exactly like you and I won’t apologise for it. There is always the one out there. Just wait and you’ll see. You are beautiful.
awdigitaldreams replied
Thanks hon, I’m glad I’m not on my own here – I’m not despairing, just disheartened LOL :) xoxox
sandra22
I love how you are ‘head up and looking forward’ ...you are gorgeous
(unloveable, no way!!)
love sandra
awdigitaldreams replied
Thanks beautiful woman:) love you too! xoxox
Gavin J Hawley
Your words are so thoughtful, and very true. But you will find the ‘One’ one day babe. We all have down periods in life, we just keep plodding along and what happens, happens. Your photo shows you looking forward into the unknown, thats how we all are babe, no-one knows what will happen tomorrow, we can only assume that the same will happen that occurs everyday. Keep smiling my friend, and as in your pic, keep your chin up. Nice work. xxxx
awdigitaldreams replied
Oh Gav – its not so much about “the one” but about finding myself – and learning to love, respect and honour myself:) and I am looking up and into the light babe! Thanks so much my friend:) xoxox
JennyMac
Your photograph is beautiful… lovely light… and as the others have said … you are looking forward and your ‘chin is up’... Don’t despair… you are certainly not unloveable!! You just haven’t met the right one yet… Often times it’s when you are not looking at all that the right one will happen by… in the meantime, rejoice in who you are and find all of who you potentially can be… and know that you are beautiful…. xoxo
awdigitaldreams replied
Rejoice in the wonderful, amazing,beautiful and supportive friends I have here in RB and in my life Jen:) THANK YOU:) xoxox
CLiPiCs
the thing about this is that the ones who shy away from what you are offering are the real losers
you will always have you, and you are a wonderful person,
they won’t have you, and thus will be without the wonder and beauty that you possess and are willing to share with them
sad sacks are they :-)
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Love ‘N’ Laughter Kriss ♥
awdigitaldreams replied
THe one thing I love about you Kriss – you ALWAYS know the right thing to say… thanks so much hon:) mwah! xoxox
Nelson Campbell
Beautifully and deeply expressed in written and visual form. ;-)
awdigitaldreams replied
Thanks so much Nelson – glad you read the words too:) xoxox
Tracey Mac
Well just keep your head held high hon and who cares what THEY think?
It’s what’s inside you and what you think that counts!!
You gotta be positive, and don’t wait around for love, it’ll find you when it’s ready, and then you’ll wonder what you were worrying about sis!! xoxox
awdigitaldreams replied
LOL sis – my head is held high as I look forward and upward – and I can see the light – just past those kickarse boots you are wearing LMAO! Thanks gorgeous:) xoxox
Lee Modrok
XO… Lovely
awdigitaldreams replied
xoxox – thanks Lee:)
Anne McGinn
Aww, angel, I could have written this too…. Know how you feel about wanting to love and give and being nurturing… its a lost art… I don’t know what the answer is but I know that it happens in its own time, in its own way…. You look great and your work is wonderful and so are you… Thanks for sharing your feelings, Hon xoxoxo
awdigitaldreams replied
Annie my sweet – it may be a lost art for some, but I know it well and I will start nurturing and giving to myself now – I deserve it! Thanks you beautiful woman, you! xoxox
Lauren Marr
this is one of the most beautiful and moving things i have ever read and seen this image and those words go together so well its beautiful. I know the feeling and im living the feeling. its hard and it hurts.
awdigitaldreams replied
When I get a comment like this Lauren, its the affirmation that my art, my words can reach through this screen and into hearts. Thank you – you touch me with your words. Stand by me, sis, and together we will look up into the light:) xoxoxox
Lauren Marr
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awdigitaldreams replied
xoxox
DarkHotel2
love the way you work your images…!
awdigitaldreams replied
thank you – its so easy pressing buttons LOL xoxox
Selkie 26 days ago
Featured in Imps ;)
awdigitaldreams replied 25 days ago
Selkie – thank you darling:) xoxox
Gary Heald 13 days ago
I am “too” open. I wear my heart on my sleeve. Like some of the people above, I make no appology for it. I give my love openly and my lovely wife gives it back to me unconditionally. Yes, I am a very lucky man. I am me and will not change for anyone. Hang in there and someone who loves you for being YOU will come along. All the rest is just games and I have always refused to join in that sort of thing. That is the route to failure and short-termism. There is a photo of my lovely wife in my RB photo. Be happy!!
awdigitaldreams replied 13 days ago
Thank you Gary – its wonderful when my words and pictures can reach out into cyberspace and connect with people – its all part of this journey we call life… I’m so glad you are a lucky man and that you have taken the time to share this with me (and others)... xoxox