I ran into Faith the other day
So the other day I “thought,” I’m still not sure, I found a lump.
but listen.
I started crying which sounds pretty normal,
but once you lose a child,
your never normal.
So Im crying, in the car,
it just hit me,
and I keep crying.
Finally
I realize why I’m crying;
we all have a purpose,
we’re here for a reason,
and I haven’t fulfilled my purpose.
See
when you stand over your childs grave
time and time again,
there is no longer a fear of death,
sometimes
you even feel yourself waiting for it,
but I found my purpose.
I know what Im supposed to do,
at least today I do,
and if it changes,
well God will let me know.
But I was hurt,
I knew what I was supposed to do,
and I felt that being taken away from me,
and it hurt.
We all want to see our loved ones in Heaven,
its just a matter of fulfilling our purpose.
I don’t know what will come of this,
it could be nothing,
it could be something,
who knows.
But until then,
I’ll keep writing,
keep working,
and keep a camera in front of my face
until
God tells me
its time to go home.
Lisa Defazio
Very confronting and brave. Keep writing and living. x
Helene Kippert
You have so much courage – I am moved by your beautiful words.
Pilgrim
Wisdom is a road paved with suffering. You are growing wise … If only it were not so. And one is left asking, why should I grow wise not the others. It is not a blessing.
Loredana Crupi
I can never know your suffering but I hear your words. Don’t let go of the camera! x
Nicole Goggins
I couldn’t even begin to imagine the pain you feel, my children are my life – i couldn’t breath without them! Thankyou for sharing your thoughts I think you are v. strong and I look forward to reading and seeing more…
StacyLee
Very moving and heart wrenching. hugs
kirays
God bless you Lex. You are in my prayers. Don’t give up, you are one of the strongest women I have ever met. Let me know how you are.
kari
You are a beautiful writer…with so many emotions and truths in your words! I’m very sorry to hear that you have lost your child, but I sense such a wonderful peace within yourself knowing that she is in heaven. I love that. And being a mother myself, I too believe that the comfort we find comes from the one above…no where else. You have amazing talent. Look forward to seeing more from you.