consistent by Avalon  D'Arcy

the fault is not in our stars, but in ourselves…

my beloved polar bear,

you are one of the most intriguing souls i have ever had the pleasure of knowing.. you wander through life confident and yet confused, maybe by the unfathomable actions of humanity, or our simple ignorance to wisdom. For years i have sat by your side listening to your philosophies and ideals on the world. I have heard your thoughts on love and existence and yet i know nothing of what lies in your heart. Your mind and imagination i have been well versed in, so well that i can feel your energy, when you are sad, when you are confused. And yet i feel as if i cannot capture your attention when i choose, you live freely, it kills some people, they dont understand the fragile complexity that is you, confused and forced to anger they lash out at you and somehow you are the one that suffers. Sometimes i see that you feel so unlike your family, so unlike the rest of the world, and i see your old soul becoming more alone. But i know you are not alone, although people similar to you are hard to find, they will stay in your life forever. they will be your teachers and your students.

You cary the entire world on your shoulders, not because it has been thrust upon you unknowingly, but because that is who you are. Where ever and who ever you were in your lives before has resonated in your soul, you have seen things before, things that you are not sure of but worry about to no extent. i see it weighing you down, like a dark cloud… despite your desperate search for your truth, you still have this incredible ability to shine, you emit this delightful, gentle happiness that engulfs whoever surrounds you…
whatever the matter, my dear friend, you have bought an incredible amount of joy into my life, you have taught me so many things about myself and life and what it is to be comfortable in my own skin no matter who i am. That the mistakes i make in life will not always echo in my eternity.
i feel immense amounts of love when i think about all the times we have spent, and i think that you are definitely and completely my best friend. there never was anyone like you, and there will never be anyone after you.

xxx av