I am a senior environmental science student in college. Despite my career choice, I’m finding myself increasingly more drawn to art. I’ve always had a great respect for art, and I cannot imagine my life without it even now. I seriously considered majoring in art, and for a while I thought I could seriously pursue art as a career. However, I didn’t follow through with that vision.
For all my unremarkable scientific aptitude, I thought environmental science would be a good livelihood to pursue. I certainly enjoy learning about many different scientific studies, and I thought travel seemed like a sexy, romantic thing. Yet, for everything I’ve learned and experienced the last five years, I can’t say I should seriously pursue a livelihood in this field, either.
I am easily irritated. I cannot cope with the stresses of everyday life, despite my wish to remain quiet and unobtrusive. When I realized these things about myself, I realized how incredibly stupid I am for thinking I can do anything remotely professional, be it art or environmentally oriented work. How can I even consider a livelihood in anything if I can’t even cope with the most basic and necessary human skills? I’ve been slipping further from art as a result of my experiences in college, and I don’t want to slip away from it.
Despite these unhappy realizations, I know I can do well if I can consistently keep my mind on the things I want and the things I need to do. I’ve always been impressed by people who can drive themselves carefully and responsibly to their intended destinations, wherever the destination may be.
“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.
You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.” – Eleanor Roosevelt
“Don’t bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself.” – William Faulkner
“Whatever you are, be a good one.” – Abraham Lincoln