i’m in a very dark place in my life at the moment. its hard to see any way out of the situations i’m in and the pain on the inside is almost unbearable. sometimes i curse god for making me wake up and breath in and out for another day. sometimes i feel just flat numb but thats a scary place to be as well. i am getting better at saying that things hurt thou at least i’m not adding to mu stockpile of old pain that i dont know what to do with. so why am i putting this in my art journal because everywhere i look i see happy people. it’s hard to express sadness and pain with the lense when all i can see is joyfull basturds. i long to create dark and moving images yet i get a cute puppy instead is this some cruel joke on behalf of what ever cosmic deitie is running the show. sometimes i just want to scream from the the roof tops up in to the stars “make it stop just make it stop” but i refrain because around here i would be arrested and proably sent a bill for the privledge of ridding in the poliece car. anyway if you have a spiratule inclination i could use all the positive thoughts i can get seeing as the universe seems to be conspiring aganst my being able to get my emotions out through my lense.
Lara Luz
have you tried turning the camera on yourself? Using yourself, your own emotion and feelings can be a great way to exhale. I highly recommend it.
My thoughts are with you during this time, I myself know what its like to be where you are.