No matter what I do I stand between two worlds.
- at least that is how it seems to me. I am a 29 year old graduate student in physics, and I love to do art. As a caucasian American I lived in Japan for 17 years – between the ages of 1 and 18, after which I left to get a BA in physics at Reed College in Portland, OR. I was raised in a missionary family. My childhood consisted largely of theological discussions with my father, and now I do computational physics. When I can I do art.
Being a foreigner raised in Japan is a very surreal experience. On the one hand I psychologically identify with the Japanese culture – but the culture itself is very unforgiving of people who do not fit into the homogeneity. I am rather treated more like an equal in the United States – populated by people who behave in a way that seems strange to me. Overall the experience gives me a lonesome feeling that I do not belong anywhere, while at the same time it gives me a fascinating perspective and understanding of the whole variety of people out there.
I like to think that my mind is a beach house, standing between the worlds of water and earth. Douglas Adams said that a beach house is a state of mind. Here is my favorite passage from Mostly Harmless:
“A beach house,” he said, “doesn’t even have to be on the beach. Though
the best ones are. We all like to congregate,” he went on, “at boundary
“Really?” said Arthur.
“Where land meets water. Where earth meets air. Where body meets mind.
Where space meets time. We like to be on one side, and look at the other.”
I hope you like my art. It expresses a creative need I have. The desire to look over into another world, sitting here in my comfy chair peering into a monitor, saying
“Hello, is anybody out there?” — Pink Floyd