My life's in a state of flux! by artgoddess

I know that the only constant thing in life is change….but this is ridiculous!

This year has been a real roller-coaster ride for me, and I’m drained and really getting fed up with the whole thing! I’d love to just jump on a plane for the Caribbean, but unfortunately I have to deal with these dramas, until they’re over…and hopefull peace once more prevails.

It began in January when my partner told me that he had prostate cancer, and so the search began for a treatment. Luckily I found Proton Beam Therapy on the internet, and it is easy on the body, covered by insurance, and has a great cure rate….what more could you ask for?
He is doing well, has to have the PSA tested for months and years to come etc., but all I care about is that it works!

Then I had two enforced educational courses to take at work, in my own time, three months each….more stress for someone who is nearing retirement, and doesn’t want to learn anything new about a line of work she can’t wait to leave!:)
All of this during the cancer scare. Plus I have new bosses at work…ugh! They are changing everything…..inciluding my work schedule. I now will have to work completely different hours, new shifts etc. We’re supposed to be voting on it, but even that isn’t simple….they’ve changed the rules several times…..incredibly frustrating when you’re just trying to move on and sort out your life, which tends to revolve around this schedule.
To top it off….my elderly mother who lives in another country (England), is in the hospital, and needs placement in a nursing home. This has been going on for the last month, and I will be flying over, possibly as soon as next week, to sort things out and get her settled.
This is going to be very traumatic for both of us I fear, and I’m not looking forward to it, she always said she’d never go into "a home’, but thankfully she’s had some brain changes ….(though I didn’t think it was good at the time, now I see it as a blessing)…….and she’s more amenable to going.
Of course the financial toll of all of these things…..travel being the big one…..did I mention my partner lives in the U.S. at present:)….is yet another stressor.

All in all, there’s just no quiet place for me to go in this play I call my life.
I am trying to stay positive, and meditate now and then, (should be daily)….and put one foot in front of the other, one day at a time. It’s all I can do.
In the mean time, I use the computer as a distraction…..I started this site and three others (plus a blog on blogger which I haven’t done much on), since all this began.

I have a store on GCU (greetingcarduniverse), one on CafePress (which I don’t like much), one on Zazzle, (which I really like), and oh yes I forgot…a small one on ImageKind, (haven’t done much with that one).

It keeps me busy….I haven’t sold a damned thing on any of them….but oh well, it’s early days, and I don’t have the time to devote to creating as I’d like, maybe in 2009?

I just read my own words….“it keeps me busy”….yeah like I need that! LOL!
Anyhow, as I haven’t done much on RB lately….thought I’d try and write something….I’ve done this post twice now, the first one I inadvertently lost, hit the wrong button…grrrr! Par for the course! :>
Now at least you know why I’ve been ignoring you…….:)
Frankly I’m not sure anyone will read this, maybe one or two, so if you do….thanks for listening, and keep your fingers crossed for a happy outcome.
Avis