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raw suite, or letter to my ex-

I wanted to tell you that I’m sorry
I’m sorry for being mean to you
I’m sorry that you affected me in such a way so long ago that I’ve come to expect bad things from you
I’m sorry that I’m so sarcastic and painfully so at times (or so it seems)
I’m sorry I’m holding on so tight to the past
I’m sorry it’s so easy for you to front the fact that I love you
I’m sorry that you don’t love me back
I’m sorry that I always write and never say
I’m sorry that I make things known to you that you’d rather not know
I’m sorry that it’s so hard for me to accept you as you are
I’m sorry that I can’t let you go
I’m sorry I’m so demanding
I’m sorry that you’ve already let me go
I’m sorry this is so simple for you and so complex for me
I’m sorry this list is so long
I’m sorry that I don’t think I matter to you
I’m sorry I ever let you go
I’m sorry that you have a girlfriend
I’m even more sorry that you weren’t the one to tell me about her
I’m sorry I call your house so much
I’m sorry that I think you think I’m crazy
I’m sorry that your whole household and all of your friends probably concur
I’m sorry I always feel I’m intruding
I’m sorry I get on your nerves
I’m sorry that you often want to hit me or shake me
I’m sorry that I see so much in you and that I want to be part of that much
I’m sorry about having to silence myself through this pen
I’m sorry that I’m so sorry
I’m sorry you make me so happy
I’m sorry that what’s beautiful to me isn’t beautiful to you
I’m sorry that you don’t tell me what I want to hear and that I get upset because of your silences
I’m sorry that I feel I deserve so much and receive so little
I’m sorry it took me so long to see that I needed to be a little bit sorry
And I‘m sorry that all of my sorries come at such a sorry time and date
I’m sorry and I wish that I didn’t have to be so sorry, but I don’t know what else to be
I’m sorry I expect so much from you
I’m sorry I feel like I know you’re better than you let yourself be sometimes
I’m sorry I want so much from you
I’m even more pitifully sorry that I want to marry you and can’t see that happening
I’m sorry that I get so happy at the thought of you
I’m sorry that I also get sad when I think of you
I’m sorry I keep telling you stuff when you tell me nothing
I’m sorry I feel like I should be sorry
I’m sorry about the past and my past inability to say what needed to be known
I’m sorry that I don’t know you better
I’m sorry you think I really don’t know you at all
I’m sorry I’m still typing the words “I’m sorry” because I already stopped and started back twice

This is beginning to get funny—Ridiculous
I still don’t understand you
I don’t know why you called me back after I called you
I don’t know why you ever came back
I’m glad you did
But you never told me
And you never let me say what I want to say because you’re afraid that what I say might catch you off-guard
You’re afraid of something
What are you afraid of?

You always stop talking and you never tell me anything
And then you say I don’t know you as if I had some kind of hand in not knowing you
And that hurts because I really want to know you
Like I really, really want to know you and I’m willing to do whatever it takes because I feel that you would never ask me to compromise myself in order to get what you wanted
You’re not that type of person
But ultimately and honestly I think that I frighten you with my love for you
And I’m sorry about it but I can’t seem to help it
Trust me
I would if I could

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