I Walked With God Today by angelaboard

I went for a walk today, cause as to no surprise my relationship has a problem. It seems all my past and present relatioships all have the same problems, “Trust”. So I went for a walk with God to see what my life is. I asked him why I can’t be happy with a man? There always seems to be no trust. Why? It seems the men I’ve dated were always in a bad relationship before me. So there past relatioship broke their trust and they have all taken it out on me. They always want to know what I’m doing, where I’m going, who I’m talking to, or going through my things. If I had something to hide i would hide it, and not leave everything out in the open. My life with them has always been open. Then there’s the other kind of trust. There also have been times where the guy, when I walk into a room, gets off the computer, or laptop everytime I walk in a room, but I don’t ask quetions I just let it go. but it continues and I get worried but still don’t ask. I try to trust. Or they go out drinking or with some friends Which is fine, but if you’re out past drinking hours, or out really late and come home sneeking in the door trying not to wake me, Surprise! I am awake you just don’t know that. STUPID! Or they don’t call or answer the phone when I call. One of my ex’s even got caught 3 times with another woman. 2 by me 1 by a frined. And he showed all the sings I mentioned above. So I asked God, "Am I meeting these men to help them turn thier hearts around, cause after me they find true happiness with another woman. But my heart is broken. Till another one finds me. I must say the men I have dated all found and persued me I never found one on my own. Never had a chance. But anyway, is this man I’m with my next project? Am I like “The Angel of Trust” or something? Am I supposed to give him his trust back? Am I supposed to leave him now so he can find true happiness with his true love? Please God tell me he is my last if this is so. Let me find my soul mate please. The man who is supposed to make me happy as well as I make him happy. A relationship with complete trust. If I don’t have a soul mate, then let me live life to be happy alone with my kids. Let me find happiness with them and through you Father. Let me do your work another way Please?