Angel312

I have been putting a lot of thought into this for the last several days and have come to a conclusion.
I have had an unfortunate miscommunication with a member here and it was no fault of anyone but I guess due to my lack of confidence and self-esteem the decision was easily swayed.
I thought that I had found a connection with someone here that appeared to be a very good critique and had a professional following which I thought would prove to be a good influence for me.
Instead I guess that I did something that insulted or dissapointed that person and they pretty much wrote me off.
I am a quiet person unless asked to talk and boy can I talk then! However, I am now afraid that I would have nothing to say here for fear that this person would only laugh at me since I am not a pprofessional as they are.
I do not consider my work as anything outstanding and never have, but I liked that when I came here people would make “nice” comments, although I did wish that some would actually offer constructive criticism when needed.
I have to admit that at times I cried because people were so nice and made such nice comments.
The one thing that will really tear me up is that I posted some of my grand-daughter’s recent drawings here and to tell her that I am leaving will break her heart!
My hope is that I can find some other little art board that accepts amateurs as myself, and that they even accept chidrens work so I can post her artwork again.
I am happy that I have met some very encouraging people here and that at moments I have even had some of sense of pride, although short-lived.
I am going to leave my stuff here for just another week and unless something should change I will probably be leaving sometime next week. (just a week to evaluate my decision)
This saddens me very deeply because I thought that this would help me build some sort of repoir and exposure, but I guess I thought wrong again…as I have not sold one piece of work!
One good thing has happened to me as a roundabout result of being here. I found myself drawing more and this gave me a chance to brush up on some of my drawing and even got some good tips about how to improve the quality of my drawings., and even several commisioned pieces. IE:using certain tools to work with.
This will hurt me deeply to leave her but I wish no further embarrassment than I have already experienced as an amateur.
To the people that helped me, you know who you are, I give you my deepest gratitude, I really do appreciate your assistance.
To the person that I thought was happy to help me I offer my gratitude for the help that I did recieve and for whatever I did to cause you grief and a reason to offer silence, I apologize for whatever I did to cause you those bad feelings..even though I am not sure what I did.
I thank you all for what I have received here and will always remember this place as a learning tool and friendly environment that helped me get up off my duff and get busy with drawing…a coping skill that has also helped me to endure this chronic pain that haunts me every minute of every day. Somehow though, through this board I have been better able to cope with this pain, and for that I am most thankful.
Thank You All
Gail(angle312)