Addiction/ Inside Me....

Inside Me…
I Ache, I Yearn
Fullfillment…
Inside Me So Cold
Yet Burns,
Sweating In Cold Chill
Can I See… Can I Look
Within Myself …
The Shadow’s
I Do Disguise…
Do I See the Hole…
Within Myself
I Fill With Poison,
And With Lies….
Never Glancing
In Mirrors,
Yes There Reveals…
Itself, the Pain
Of A Child, Torment
For Deep Within…
Me Dwells
All The Things,
Feeling Gone…
Lament, A
Life Of Hell…
Yes Many Things,
I’ve Hid Inside
I’ve Locked …
Within My Heart…
All The things
I Can’t Forgive I Hold
Lost Innocence…
And I Will Not PART,
It Mine , It’s Mine
I Hold Her,
I Hide, I Cling ,
Held To My Disease…
It Makes Me Cold
Yet Makes, Me Hot…
I’ve Whimpered,
Yes, I’ve Been On Knees….
Yet I Am Afraid To Part
I Love … Yes Cling,
I Hold I’ve Held Her
Addiction For This ….
Protects My Heart
Yet Is Deadly
In Affliction… It
GRABS You From the Start…
If Others Were To See ,
Yes , See Inside Of Me
Yes See Where I Have Once
Be Holding In Their
Judgment , Belief
It Would Not Part
Yes Hold Their Eyes
Down In Disgust,
Such Shame …
Shattered, Child’s Heart…
To Peel, Peel Off
These Layers
To See It’s Beauty
It’s Beauty , Yes Revealed….
Would Bring My Mind ,
My Heart Such Joy….
I’d Be Peace Yet, Freedom
Filled.. Complete, And Whole
The “Addiction”
Would Die…
That Lives…
Inside, INSIDE…
Of Me…

  • linaji

    linaji

    THIS IS WONDERFUL AND RIGHT ON SWEETHEART…

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    Aww thank you Dear Lina doing another reach out form withn thing love work that touches to the innermost self …. Super big hugs to you lil ol me xx

  • Paul Gibbons

    Paul Gibbons

    Beautiful writing Amber.

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    Thank you so very very much paul I am always grateful for your support and friendship mnay blessing sent to you always
    lil ol me =))

  • wigs

    wigs

    wow that was wonderful, so well written and expressed

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    Thank you so very very much Wigs , very nice to see you my firnend to the early am it is bout 4 am hear =))) xxxooo

  • Sally Omar

    Sally Omar

    Oh, Amber, absolutely beautiful!!!!!!! xooxoxox

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    aww thank yu so very very much dear Sally and a happy morn to you too xxxx

  • EDGYONE

    EDGYONE

    an amazing piece of writting Amber, very pretty….....

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    Thank you very much Randy it is awesome ( your support) and comment hugs / blessings lil ol me

  • Gregory John O'Flaherty

    Gregory John O...

    Beautiful,, and I don’t have to peal back anything to see yours !!

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    Thank you so very very much Greg ( you too ) my friend somethings such as beauty in spirti are truly never cloaked =))))))

  • Shoaib .

    Shoaib .

    beautiful work amber … i could really feel the sentiment in this one

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    thank you so very very much Shoaib been a nice wake up on this one it seems to be reaching out , I am always reaching =)))) have a super day my friend
    lil ol me =)))))))))

  • Carol Berliner

    Carol Berliner

    Brilliant work! stunning! I looooove it! Instant fav!

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    thank you so very very much Carol big hug to you my friend always your support means the world to me =)))) xxxoooo

  • tkrosevear

    tkrosevear

    brilliant embracing of the shadow Amber, as when we just loathe it, it will always sneak back to bite us… ♥

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    yes and damn it!!!! sometimes just pisses me off when we ignore it becomes so ewmpowered again always the wound of life lived and spirit torn hugssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss lil ol me xx

  • RobynLee

    RobynLee

    Very Honest & Powerful!

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    Thank you so very very much RobynLee it so moves when not addressed it becomes still when spoken hugsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss lil me and blessings to you my friiend =))))))xx

  • Karen  Helgesen

    Karen Helgesen

    This is very powerful…and describes addiction very well. To be addicted is bad…but to have nothing feels even worse. The trick is finding the true source of healing and the only one who can fill that awful hole. This must have been liberating to write…yet very hard.

    Wonderful…and you are very loved.

  • Amber Elizabet... replied

    Aww thank you karen it was reaching and pulling scab offf of wounds long healed i am working on some public announcements and informational work for an addicitions program to reveal to often see the problem is the first step towards hope life and living this is found only through god’ forgiveness and the forgiveness of self big hugs to you my friend love ya lil me xxx

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