Amanda
Amanda had lived her entire life behind masks. Childhood was the easiest, she just smiled & laughed her way through the trials & tribulations of growing up . . . of growing into her own skin.
The posturing masks of pretending to be a grown up were the most difficult to wear, they pinched in all the wrong places . . . striving for acceptance . . . trying too hard to be the best . . . even the practised smile of her youth got a little tighter, a little less spontaneous than it once upon a time was.
Amanda’s armoury shielded her from the glare & scrutiny of other peoples opinions of who they thought she was . . . who they wanted her to be. On occasion her shield became a weapon to distance those intent on penetrating her defences.
A mask does its job for a day, or a year, or . . . think of a number. But it gets harder over time to maintain the façade, to keep up the pretence. There comes a time when all the masks start to look the same, when you start to wonder who it is staring back at you in “that reflection” . . .
That was the day Amanda walked out into the world for the first time.
Comments
wow. that’s all i can say about this.
fabulous and thought-provoking, packs a real punch Miss A.
see you on sunday! x : )
thanks tania, sort of says it all without saying it all . . .
can’t wait to see you Sunday
xXx
am
– amanda marx
Glorious!! felt a shiver up my spine….. see you sunday sweet one xox
Hi Ena, thanks so much for commenting on my little expose, can’t wait to see you & Miss T on Sunday (any chance of us trying some corsets maybe?)
xXx
am
– amanda marx
fantastic writing Amanda.
thank you Sharon, sorry to take so long to get back to you. I really appreciate the feedback . . . I’m all a blush that you liked it. You may enjoy my “Andy” story if you have the time ?
thanks again sweeetie
xXx
am
– amanda marx
Brilliant Amanda … Consider me a fan of your writing! cheers!
wow, thank you Jayne . . . that’s such a compliment coming from a lady with your eye for the subtleties of life, as i see it in your beautiful work . . . you might also enjoy “Andy” if your in the mood for a taste of inner city Melbourne life? it’s a little longer but would value your opinion if you have the time
cheers
xXx
am
– amanda marx
Amanda, you could replace your name and your story would probably describe 95 percent of the people. Such is the nature of being human.
We all come into the world with baggage even before we take our first breath…and it is uphill from then on. Even having to learn to focus our eyes is a chore. Not being able to understand where we are or what is going on has to be truly frustrating to a newborn…all the masks we see are blurred.
Once our eyes focus, we see what we think is a real face, but it changes with each new confrontation. Our mother and our father are masters with masks and we learn quickly from them. If we have siblings, again they teach us how to changes faces for the circumstance. None of them are even aware of the masks…they just change them as needed. Recognizing this is an enlightening experience most will never know.
Very well written Amanda. well done…..xxxxx
thank you so much Ann (have i got that right?) . . . i’m so in the zone you’ve just spoken of so eloquently . . . loving the journey, all be it that some of the stop-overs have been a little fraught on occassion. Fortuneately the older i get the clearer the view is . . . I look forward to chatting again soon
BeWell sweeetie
xXx
am
– amanda marx
Wow, great writings. You are so talented and so right on!!!!
hi vickie, sorry to take so long to reply to your very kind comments, there’s a much longer story to follow on from this if/when i ever get around to finishing it
cheers sweetie
am
– amanda marx
Wonderful and so true of a lot of us and, i also agree with what Ann said and i do miss her being here …….
hugz bev
OMG i’ve just realised Ann has greyed out on us . . . do you know what the story is? she’s such a sweetie & so spot on with all her comments . . .
thank you for stopping by to read my story, writing is probably where i’d like to be more than anything but finding the time not to mention the inspiration & talent to do it is another story
huggs & kisses to you sweet cheeks
am
– amanda marx
Well all i know is she left under duress, im sorry i cant remember the details but she was defending her christian beliefs and felt she was under attack, it was sad and she did have a lot of support in trying to get her to stay………….
hugz bev
hmmm . . . i’m sorry to hear that . . . my RB experience has been entirely +ve & supportive, it’s very disappointing that Ann or anyone has left because of their faith, no matter what their spiritual beliefs may be
will chat again soon sweetie
cheers
– amanda marx
Beautifully conceived and expressed.
thank you aaron . . . there’s a much longer story in the wings to come out of this little cameo piece
cheers
am
– amanda marx
I look forward to it.