I'm A Complicated Drive

Now you’ve had a taste of me, you want me for your lunch.
But I think you need know more of me before you start to munch.
You’ve entered my amusement park and you think you’d like to ride,
But I know more about me see, I know what lies inside.
You need to know contained in me is a building, burning tide.
I won’t be an easy girl for you, I’m a complicated drive.
I’ll beg, I’ll plead, I draw you deep and then I’ll throw you out.
I’ll let you step inside my house today, tomorrows sign “KEEP OUT!”
I’m up, I’m down, I’m in, I’m out, I’m somewhere in between.
Right now I make you sweat and writhe, later I’ll make you scream.
I will shun you, shove you, throw you down and tell you just to leave.
The door will shut and on my knees I’ll implore you not to go.
I’ll tell you please come close to me, and then I’ll start to cry.
You want to be the one I need, but my needs change on the fly.
For me to open up to you and trust in us is what you’re hoping for.
But know to win you’ll pay for sins of those who came before.
This heart has bled; these eyes have shed at least a million tears.
I won’t say so but please don’t go, stay and calm my fears.
You say you’ll dwell with me in this thing I refuse to tag as love.
But I’ve heard that line so many times, my heart has given up.
So if you kiss my cheek and I respond loudly with a slap,
Please hold me tight and resist my fight and please don’t slap me back.
Now you’ve read my words, and know me more I have one last request.
Before I stray too far too fast, pull me hard into your arms and say
You love me best.

  • Matt Adamik

    Matt Adamik

    Excellent!

  • Mark Ramstead

    Mark Ramstead

    I always have.

  • JennyMac

    JennyMac

    Amanda… this is nothing short of Brilliant!! You have summed up perfectly the complications of love… and the residue of hurt that’s gone before… well done… : ))

  • raymondoantonio

    raymondoantonio

    YOU ARE A REAL ARTIST WHO HAS EXPERIENCED THE PAIN OF REALIZATION, THAT SAYING…I LOVE YOU…IS EASIER SAID THAN DONE…A BRILLIANT PIECE OF WRITING AMANDA!! XO

  • Terry Hinkle

    Terry Hinkle

    Damn you are GOOD!
    You constantly amaze us all with your creative brilliance.

  • ArcadiaTempest

    ArcadiaTempest

    This speaks so of the inner beauty of the creative soul….and the turmoil that fuels our inspiration as well…to be seen, visible to the someone and not have them run from all the complexity of who we are ….XX You have sure written this with not holding back …wonderful writing..

  • gemini63

    gemini63

    You have captured all the emotional conflicts within oneslf and relationship in this :))

  • rubyjo

    rubyjo

    oh wow. you’ve really put the words to the emotions in this!

  • Tony Ryan

    Tony Ryan

    Wonderful writing Amanda. I think the sentiments you have described here are so true for so many human beings. We so want love but have been so hurt by love that we unconsciously fall into the most complex self sabotague games. However transparent writing such as yours here can help others to stop the self sabotague and reach deeply for real love.

  • skinnyman

    skinnyman 25 days ago

    So much relates, you have a talent for reaching within a reader :)

  • Cassidy JK (Ra Or Emraeh)

    Cassidy JK (Ra... 25 days ago

    I really love this one Amanda.

  • Serena Dunaway

    Serena Dunaway 19 days ago

    Wow

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