Haunted (I see your face)

It’s the break of dawn
And my eyes are weary,
I feign a smile of content
For all to see
But deep inside
My heart
Is heavy.

[Must I see your face everywhere I go?]

It’s in the shirts you left
That litter my room,
The pictures I drew
[Oh Purity, I’m doomed.]
It’s in the poems you wrote
That I hold dear,
The photographs of us
That bring me to tears.
It’s in the roads we walked
Those fateful summer days,
The movies we watched
While fatigue beckoned us away.
It’s in the pillowcase you lent me
That Halloween,
The one I hold
While you haunt my dreams.
It’s in the coffee mug you left
That’s on my stand,
It goes well with the room
Where we first held hands.
It’s in the couch where we
Shared our first kiss,
The songs that echo
This insatiable loneliness.
It’s in the books you gave me
About Faith, Hope and Love,
The God you showed me
That reigns above.
It’s in anything and everything
I see and do,
Oh God, Purity
Why can’t I escape you?

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Haunted (I see your face) by AlteredMind

Okay… well now. So, obviously not over this breakup thing yet. Hah! Kind of funny, kind of not.. hey, cut me some slack, trying to make the most of this situation here. >_< Anywho! Not gonna lie, this poem isn’t a hundred percent accurate but I definitely exercised my poetic licence here so.. that’s a okay! What can I say besides, I realised that trying to keep myself busy with other things and trying to seek out God as much as I can only get you so far when it comes to actually getting over someone. I legitimately don’t understand what the heck I’m supposed to do now. I could burn all my stuff.. but that sure as heck wouldn’t be productive at all would it? Why? Well for starters, I’d be homeless. Okay, just trying to lighten up the mood here lol. But anyways.. hoping this poem is going to get some of this crap out of my system and uhh.. here’s hoping for the best? >_< Snap. God bless you all and for those who pray.. umm.. prayer would greatly be appreciated! Thanks a bunch! Take care!

Comments

reindeer5 months ago

No one understands anything in a breakup. ;) Your feelings are wonderfully spoken. I will be praying for you…that you find peace, that you hear His voice above all other voices. I know you trust Him, even when you cannot see Him moving…that is great faith. Every sigh is carried by His Holy Spirit to God’s throne….for He is moving on your behalf. =)
Thank you so much reindeer. This definitely wasn’t my first breakup, but boy, has it ever been the worst. =S Thank you very much for your prayers. I appreciate them and you so very much. =) I’ve been strongly seeking God and I know that He has been guiding me and helping me through these times. But it’s funny, just when I thought I was over everything.. well.. turns out I wasn’t. Hahaha. Oh well, it’ll be great. =) If you prayed for joy, heck, it totally worked! Thanks again! Have a great day! God bless you and keep you all the days of your life! May you dwell in the house of The Lord forever! =)

P.S. this might be considered as being a troublemaker but if you want to see the other side of this coin.. if you look in my tags for this poem, it’s the first tag. ;-)
– AlteredMind
Angela L Walker5 months ago

I’m praying for you… for your strength… for your healing. I echo Reindeer’s response. God Bless you!
Thank you so much Angela! It’s really been hectic but I know in my heart that The Lord is hard at work, He is healing both of us and preparing to use us for His glory! It’s just a little unexpected because.. I genuinely thought I was over it.. but Jesus told me I didn’t even really deal with it. So.. He wins. Hah. Anywho, may The Lord watch over you and protect you in all that you do. May He provide for you abundantly and care for you deeply. Always and forever. Amen. =)
– AlteredMind
reindeer5 months ago

=) lol. i had a sneaking suspicion….but o my goodness, i never thought to look at the tag! you are both so precious, my heart aches for you both. well, God has brought you and K across my path in life so i will lift you up in prayer in this new year. Cling to Him…hold fast to what He tells us is true (we cannot always trust our feelings at such a time) and you will find your way. He has a beautiful plan for your life….and rest assured, you are never ever alone. =)))
Hahaha. Yeah.. coincidental timing for our poetry to take a sudden turn huh? ;-) Oh.. I hope she doesn’t see this. >_< Thank you so much for your time, consideration and prayer though! We both greatly appreciate it! =) We will continue to seek God and carry out His will, whatever it may be. =) He will carry us through this time for He is good. =) Thanks again for everything! God bless you and keep you. =) You have such a kind soul. =)
– AlteredMind
Robin Monroe5 months ago

writing is very therapeutic….and so many can relate…keep on writing and sharing:)
Very therapeutic indeed. =) I’m feeling much better after getting this off my chest. =) Hope you enjoyed it! And I’m glad you think others will be able to relate! Thank you very much once again Robin. =) Take care and may God bless you all the days of your life! =)
– AlteredMind
Karen Helgesen4 months ago
Thank you very much Karen! I really appreciate it! This poem was written about quite the difficult time, but as we know, The Lord is with us through thick and thin and He will preserve us, watch over us and protect us. God bless you!
– AlteredMind