Jessica Williams

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Age: 31
City: Rochester
Country: United States

Joined: Jan 2008

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Well let’s see.. My name is Jessica if you didn’t already read that. I’m 30, going on 50. I’ve been told I’m wise way beyond my years. I suppose that is because I’ve never met a 30 year old that has been through even half of what I’ve been through in life.

I’ve grown up with a severe physical disability, and am wheelchair bound. I have severe juvenile rheumatoid arthritis, which has deteriorated every joint in my body, gradually since the age of 2.

I was very much abused growing up, physically, verbally, mentally, socially, emotionally… everyway but sexually (I most definately consider that a blessing). I had no childhood. I went from being a prisoner in my parent’s house, to complete freedom for the first time ever when I graduated high school (barely, due to depression) and went away to college, purposely out of state. I have been in and out of one abusive and/or unhealthy relationship ever since, one of the biggest being alcohol. I was angry with the world and with God, and for a while I even resorted to witchcraft.

Even with being in a wheelchair, the alcohol and the unhealthy relationships eventually landed me in prison for two years. I know in my heart now, however, that the Good Lord was rescuing me from the life I was trapped in. Being in prison with such a severe disability is absolutely the worst thing I’ve been through, but I refused to let it be in vain.

Prison saved my life.. and my soul. Don’t ever let anyone say that ‘jail religion’ is phony.. I am living proof that that is not always true. I have been out for over a year now, and there is not even a shadow left of that old person. I still can’t get a wheelchair accessible apartment to take me with felonies on my record, and some days I am struggling. But I know He will continue to take care of me, and I have nothing to fear. I am a very active member of my church and the community, and am doing my best to give back what God has given me.

I could sit here and write forever, but if you want to truly see inside me, then read my writings. My poetry, my lyrics, and my short writings are windows right into my soul. Most will be filled with love, strength and hope. Other days I may I may be struggling, and my writing will show it.

One thing is always for sure, however. The words come from no where but deep inside my heart, and I hope you will be able to see the depths of the love I have inside of me.

Thank you for reading ME… Enjoy and God bless!