I am I think I have

Alex Brown
Author: Alex Brown
Word Count: 369
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I am I think I have

from my past i bring my truth. this is how i am and what i am, i have lied too much and am feeling the burden of the truth unraveling.

I am
obnoxious and rude
arrogant and overbearing
a betrayer and not worthy of your trust

I am
always late, never on time
overconfident yet always unsure
badly received and always spoken about in whispers

I am
too generous with money i don’t have
too honest for your friendship
too self centred to care

I am
convincing and observant
yet always in denial of what i see
i am always uncomfortable in her presence

I am
a bad friend
a worse boyfriend
a lying son

I am
clinically insane
deservedly deranged
manipulative and controlling

I am
a good listener
a good hugger
a weak hand shaker

I am
so angry and full of hate it hurts

I am
self obsessed
in love with myself
and narcissistic

I am
never unobtrusive
always unorganized
and love being uncontrollable

I am
needing revenge of those that hurt me
mainly myself

i am
considered an artist
though i cannot see it
considered creative
though i cannot see it
considered a writer
though again
i cannot see

I am
the triad in my head
unhappy with my life
yet i am too stubborn to change it

I am
always jealous
of every happy relationship that my friends are in
because i want them myself

I am
One to drink jim over jack and johnnie
always just the friend
never anything more

I think
about love and my life
and the sadness it brings

I think
that i know everything
that i am gods gift to mankind and womankind
i am wrong

I think
love is be overrated
especially when there is hate
i am in denial

I have
expensive taste
exploited people
and nice shoes

I have
obsessions and one fetish
about post it notes memo’s and word pads
and steel heel high heel shoes

I have
a brutal mind
a brutal heart
a brutal sense of direction

I have
a fascination for cows
an addiction to Starbucks
a venti signature hot chocolate with caramel syrup and hold the whipped cream to go

I have
a quick wit
dry humour
and the past of a pathological liar

I have
accepted who i am
accepted what i am
an obsession with the truth

  • Shannon Rene' Justice

    Shannon Rene' ...

    wow, for a moment there I thought you were talking about me! lol

  • Alex Brown replied

    lol, this is the finality of me and if people don’t like it, its their problem :D

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