You have some free time.
So you sit,sit and think.
You feel your insides churn.
The numbness takes over your mind.
You feel the tears well up.
They over-flow,you leave them un-checked.
Is the only chance you’ve had.
To let your emotions run true.
You have wanted to scream,cry.
Wanted to yell and rant.
Wanted to turn your back,bury your head.

This can’t be happening.
Only seems like yesterday when you went through this before.
A loved one is ill again.
All those trips to Doctors, specialists.
Every woken moment was filled with details,times and appointments.
Long medical terms buzzing in your head.
Your sleep is broken with fears and dread.

You know you will be there for them.
But can you do it again,have you the energy.
Have you the strength,the commitment.
Most of all the courage.
You’re only the passenger.
It’s a tough seat to be in.