I need fixing again.

Affimation
Author: Affimation
Word Count: 272
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How am I supposed to be everything and do everything for everyone when every avenue I go down closes the door in my face?
I am so over being strong and tough to get us through, where is everyone to help me where is my support and source to gather strength from, have you abandoned me in my time of need.

You say you never stretch us further than we can handle well I am that rubber band at breaking point. I am stretched and distorted way out of proportion I have nothing left. All my strength and fight is gone. I just want to give up because it has all become way too hard for me to handle.

I am still waiting for you to dust me off and set me straight on my struggled path, but still nothing is coming my way. I feel stripped of everything inside me. I understand now how some people do what they do when they get so desperate with no relief from there despair.

I need you to fill me with courage and strength just to get through this rough patch I am experiencing. I hate feeling so helpless and useless and dependant, but there is no more independence for me. I try my hardest to rely on you for all my needs but when nothing is forth coming and there is no more I can do. I look for you and I feel you are so far away. I feel like you have abandoned me in my time of need.

I stand here before you, your broken child waiting your fixing once again.

  • gemini63

    gemini63 24 days ago

    This expresses how i have felt so often of late
    You are not alone :))

  • Affimation replied 23 days ago

    Thanks so much gemini I really appreciate your support :)

  • sunshine0

    sunshine0 22 days ago

    I know this feeling…I am no stranger to this, but it all does have a way of working out…honest!

  • Affimation replied 22 days ago

    Thank-you so much sunshine for your encouraging words:)

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