Growth Gap
I sat
Staring transfixed at the white gap
In the leaves of the naturally perfect tree
The tree planted and left to do its own thing
Nurtured by sun wind and rain
The gap the shape of the tree itself
The shape of a cluster of leaves
White grey like the clouds surrounding it
The heart of the tree exposed
I stared as the soft rain fell
Healing rain
Obliterating sight of the gap
Only the dark silhouette of the tree visible
Solid comforting secure
Beautiful
~ adgray © 2006
Growth Gap by adgray
14 -07-06
[Mother’s Day]
I wrote this the day I saw my children for the first time after the 556 days of not seeing them, not knowing where they were, how they were, if they were. We had just been in the contact center where for two hours strangers watched my children and I heal the wound their father created … and they had cried at the injustice.
I didn’t cry until I was away parked in the carpark and staring mindlessly at the tree until my body could react with the immensity of the relief … they were alive after all.
I wrote this blind with tears
and when I looked up the world was gently crying with me!
UPDATE!
November 22nd 08
I have found a picture of a tree that reminds me of this tree
Strength by the stunning Caroline Gorka
I hope you will see it as I do.
Thank you! ♥
☼ UPDATE!!!! ☼
October 2009
Healing
More to come!
Chookas! ♥
Comments
Very complete write, great imagery without pictures, transfixed on natures beauty , soft and healing well chosen words.
Many Thanks PJC
lol I have just found the reply button! lol
Please read the comment I left you above
Thank you ~ adg :o)
again! lol
– adgray
You’re very welcome DoN
I truly do not plot or plan I pick up a pen and paper and write
this one was how I recovered from seeing my children for the first time after 556 days of not seeing them, most of them not knowing if they still existed let alone where they were
I literally sat in the car staring at the tree and wrote almost without looking at the page and by the end of the poem the fine rain began to fall and so did my tears – of relief!
It is always the little ones that suffer the pains of the adults. I am sorry to hear you and your children had such pains at the hand of one man………I now understand the bond between you guys being so strong and beautiful. xxxx Love you guys.
Thank you so much Sal
Little did he know that in his attempt to stop contact he created a yearning and longing that has bonded us tighter! It would kill him to know we are grateful to him!
Have a wonderful day dear lady :o)
[Mick says hi & happy mum’s day too – I’m on his PC lol]
oh wow I love this! It’s so Zen like I guess with the tree, it’s so soul bare and even more so after reading the description! what a beautiful poem. Thanks so much for sharing :) xx
Thanks Rachael
sorry for the late reply just found you’d commented
It was written in an almost trance-like state just prior to me bursting into tears I had no outlet for my emotion at that time – no one to talk to no one to hold me – I just sat in my car and stared at the tree and wrote this in my note book instead of what had happened during my visit.
I so love trees and the rain and the healing properties of nature.
Keep Happy! :o) xox
– adgray
So sad to read your story behind this. I can imagine some of your pain, to entire that is only possible for those who had to go through this pain. Makes me feel blessed to have my kids around. I hope you all find a way to heal.
With friends like you my healing is easier
Thank you! ♥
– adgray
excellent writing
Thank you so much Keith
It is special to me as it came from my subconscious when I had no conscious thought to deal with my intense and conflicting emotions at that moment of my life…. aah for the saving grace of poetry! ~ adg :o)
– adgray
beautiful work..deep feelings..been there..didn’t like it
Oh man it’s horrible isn’t it!
and it makes no difference how they try to improve it all prettied up with niceness and stuff – it is just HORRIBLE!!!
I hope your everafter was eventually happy ☼
Thank you for reading my words ♥
– adgray
The last word sums up the poem.
Thank you! ♥
– adgray
Fankoo Dear Di! =0þ
Chookas! ♥
– adgray