I’m terrified
Lost in the confining space
Of the maze inside my mind
I’ve come to hate you
You who are betraying that which you have asked of me

A purpose
Such potential
Such a mind as this
Has shattered my life to a million bits

Swirling in spaces, different places – parallel universes
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but where my heart has asked me to be
I followed, and then you betrayed me!

What did you think I would do
When I got so many mixed messages from you?
So now I’ve been wandering here in the dark
For far too long
Listening for your cues
But I can’t hear you

So I’ll stand still for a moment
Cover my ears
Swallow my pride
And I’ll block out my fears

And then I’ll start walking
I don’t know where
But I’ll listen for
The answers I know have been there
Underneath all your shouting, your needy pleas
They sit humbly by
And wait for me to fall to my knees

Finally I’m ready to cooperate
Take me and use me, make me truly great
Honest and humble, I’ll move on
And the next time you plead with me
I’ll be gone